An Odd Dream

[clocktor]

Last night I dreamed I was in a bank, or a grocery store - somewhere with lines of people - and I found myself standing next to Alan Hale

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[changeling72]

I have never seen Gilligan's Island.

[restoman]

I remember Gilligan's Island very well. It was one of my favorite shows growing up

[clocktor]

Your relationships with these “lost boys” is well documented in your Livejournal. It is an interesting dynamic that I hope brings you more happiness than it would me...I would be consumed with longing if I surrounded myself with young men who needed what I have needed in my own life. I tried a comparable route myself - I needed to be needed, and found myself in a string of relationships that took and took and took from me with not much return. Not saying that’s what your situation is, but that was certainly mine.

My current (and most lasting) relationship is the first wherein there’s a pretty good balance of independence. It’s not perfect (what ever is?) but I don’t feel I’ve been bled by a leech...

[restoman]

A number of those lost boys have been bisexual and our relationships were "friends with benefits", so I was getting something out of it too besides just the emotional satisfaction. Still I think I would rather have a partner who was more of an equal partner than a dependent one. Although, like you I have a very strong need to be needed (I used to joke that the theme song of my life was: I Want to be Wanted by Brenda Lee). I realize that some of these relationships have tended to bleed me dry, and in recent years I have been very wary of that type. So I have tried to be more careful lately. It is still a learning process.