so yeah....yesterday is over.... yes i did not feel well all day.... but i was also keeping to myself the regrets of 5 years ago, as they played in all of my thoughts of yesterday.
not once did i mention it to anyone....
not even to my mother...
i didn't even recognize my cousin's wedding anniversary, just to push it off more.
it was 5 years ago, July ( Read more... )

monday was a very nice day...it was warm....me carole and julz went swimming at her cousin's pool. julz sat on my shoulders a good 8 or 9 times. the last time i felt my back kinda give, i was fine until i got home. i was crying all night. work was terrible the next day...i managed to get through midnight harry potter. and yesterday i went to the ( Read more... )

I am a    USL
an unidentified screaming lesbian.

but i graduated.... i started out as a UFL

unidentified FLYING lesbian....

i think i like the flying part better....

so apparently the other night, i got really trashed, and i called a ton of people....if i called you...i'm sorry...i know it was late....but i dont remember who i called, spoke to, or left messages for. i learn something new everyday.... ("Dan, I'm a full blown lesbian, and i think you are so sexy"-the new dan at work....oh my god ( Read more... )

its now 5:22 in the morning. i feel like im having an anxiety attack. :(

I just want to sit down and talk to you.... just straighten things out.... i miss you....please....please....i dont want to fight....and this is about the best shot i have of even talking to you cause you blocked me from everything....so please....when you're ready....im waiting.

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Kate....
I love you. And i always have, and i always will....you can push me as much as you want....what i feel for you isn't just gonna go away. You gotta believe me when i tell you, kate. you're everything to me... for 3 years, i have loved you...there isn't one day that i havn't thought about you...not one day where i didn't  bring up your name, ( Read more... )

My mom keeps asking me what is wrong.

How do i tell her that im so unhappy that i dont want to wake up anymore.

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It will always feel the same. the love i feel for you baby....

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Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
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