does anyone else stay up till midnight and later watching crappy info-mercials about ninja swords and wierd treadmill type things that look like they would kill you before they would help you lose and weight. i think im gonna start carving things out of wood, but i'll start that tomorrow after i try to find a job, but for now i guess i'll try to ( Read more... )

thinking about times that were better. wishing there was something i could do that could bring about some sort of change...i wish there was some way to give you the strength you need to make it through this. id beg you to stay again if i knew it would make a difference in the long run. i wish there was some thing i could do to show you that i love ( Read more... )

im here back at home sitting but not being able to sleep....i miss being down south, i miss nikki, i miss classes, i miss making art, i miss my friends....just got back from la today. painted for redbull, and didn't ask for enough which kinda sucks...i guess when i get pictures developed i'll post them like any of you actually read this....i figure ( Read more... )

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here i am back at home...well home i guess. home is alot of places right now but for the time being im up north...school got odd, as the government projects say we got our funding cut....and well i dont have the cash to pay for school myself so here i am...sitting at home sketching, painting, sleeping, wishing i was somewhere else....

i think if you live by here you should go to this...
Nov. 8th:

A Burning Water

Desa

Color of Contempt

Love Hope and Fear

$3

at the Half Moon Bay Community Center
(535 Kelly Avenue)
its only 3 dollars and i know that nobody from by there reads my journal but if anyone stubles across this and does you should go...cause it will be fun i promise

well its effing cold...like really cold. im in southern california...its not supposed to be cold. shit. and my brilliant room mates kept the damn window open all effing day...sweet. consideration is my favorite thing in the whole world.

hold my breath...the problems progress, the stress is built, what seemed so close now feels so far...i already feel alone, the tention has built, the blood has boiled, the tears have spilt, this feeling of helplessness is splitting my heart, its times like these when you realize...that everything you have worked so hard to crate and build could be ( Read more... )

im tired...im bored...my email doesnt work. and im sitting here in my room with about an hour and a half before class starts. with nothing to do my hands hurt from painting...and my body hurts from skating...the food from the cafeteria makes me sick...i have class all day when it finally does happen...i have a crit today for figure and im gonna get ( Read more... )

well today was the first day of classes and well i only had one but yeah it was ok and it seems like it will be a good experience...but yeah once again im sitting here in my room doing nothing cause veryone else is off doing things i think that i may seek employment elsewhere than borders....laurel said she could probly get me a job where she works ( Read more... )