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IM ALIVE
after yet another close call on the highway im still alive and able to write about it my truck did a 180 on the highway on my way home last week I know most of you are already thinking what were you doing nothing really and i dont care if you dont belive me I was quite shaken up about it and had to park my car a j's parents home and he had to come ( Read more... ) -
urgh!@#$%!
yet another sad and morbid thought filled day I think that this towns gotten the better of me and Im really ready to go to warmer climes time to move on. -
well 3days since my birthday and what Ive learned in a year
Most notably Ive learned that what you want and what you get arent always the same. Something that ive always known is if you as god for it youll get so be specific and becare what you ask for you may not need or want it once it comes. Im upbeat though I look forward to moving home or visiting more often this year and I know that Colorado is not ( Read more... ) -
home?
I want to go home I want the feeling of home I want to be loved at home with my man and be happy I want to be warm and I want to be loved and happy! I dont want to be here this is not home and try as I may it dosent have that feel I only wish it would. I cant make him come with me and to ask him to come is puttin him in the same position Im in now ( Read more... ) -
and now i must apologize
Well each time i vent and let out whats inside I offend and wound and deeply hurt my husband he is a great man and treats me very good if it wasnt for him I wouldnt make it at all Im sorry I hurt him by how I feel and what I say but thats how I feel and he needs to know I know he will be there for me. He knows I dont want to live here and he's ( Read more... ) -
Missing the Christmas Spirit :(
Im not sure what it is exactly, Ive bought the presents wrapped them up and have plans to be with family and friends but its dosent feel right it feels like im missing something. In the past few days and I must say it came upon me very fast this fog of memories of friends and family and times I spent with them wether it were on a holiday or just a ( Read more... ) -
thats why its a live journal :)
well other people read this hmm.. I know its such a stupid discovery that sometims I forget and write just about anything in here but heck i dont mind or i wouldnt write it. Just a little update Im not so unhappy any more well i dont like my job and cant wait to go on vacation and go with jason to houston for his confrence its just i dont know if ( Read more... ) -
the wheels are spinning in my head
I want to go home and In that I dont mean my apt I want to go home to Texas sleep in my old room in my moms house and work a two bit job in SA and have no resposibilities except paying my car and giving my mother money for rent. I want to be somewhere where its warm and familar to me I want to be with my family and be able to talk to other people ( Read more... ) -
emotions
I myself am a very emotional person I love to laugh and I even love to cry. "Laughter through tears is one of my favorite emotions" :) ok so that line isnt original but it true to me very much! There is however one emotion that I dislike because it cause such pain and creates doubt and anger. Which is this emotion you ask? Jealousy the green eyed ( Read more... )
