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let go.
Why all of a sudden am I so sad? I'm reminiscing and rethinking all of my emotions and actions in the past year. Am I really in love with him ? I mean, that would be a really silly thing to do, because god knows, I don't necessarily believe in love, but when I can like him through all the shit he puts me through... that must mean that right ? I'm ( Read more... ) -
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And just as fast as graduation passed, so did the summer of my senior year. I have boxes stacked in a corner of my room and tomorrow I will be moving in to a new life and a new chapter will start again. I've been anticipating this day the entire summer, and now I'm not quite sure if I am ready for it. I'm nervous, but I know that once I move in, ( Read more... ) -
oh hey, i don't care anymore.
I think I figured it out. I have to be a bitch to get what I want..... why the fuck does it work that way ? -
here i am with my heart on the floor
Wow I'm kind of lame. I'm listening to intense girl power music and its really making my circumstances better. Now I need to beat the urge to get on aim and read a book. I have a phone, so I don't think it will be necessary to be on aim... at least it shouldn't be. :/ -
do you like me? check yes or no
So to say I am blinded by love is a little overbearing. I don't think that I have fallen madly in love, but I have fallen into a spell that I am scared of. I am mostly scared because I have made myself vulnerable, and I feel like I am the only one in this "relationship" that is developing, that cares. Maybe nothing is developing and I am fooling ( Read more... ) -
hello? anybody out there ?
So to say that I am leaning on blind ambition is a bit of an understatement. I have just spent an hour or so looking at Parson's School of Design's website. I looked at the financial aid, the transfer requirements, and everything else. I really have no idea how I could possibly just transfer to a fashion school in the middle of New York City and ( Read more... ) -
my dearest friend.
Hello my dear friend,
You always always listen to me, even in my silly depressing states. Thanks for sticking around for the past 5 or 6 years. Thank you for listening and thank you for taking in the changes around my life and accepting me and these changes.
yours truly,
Anastassia -
graduated?
Oh, I graduated.
I suppose I should post a long and sentimental entry, but um, all that I have on my brain is catching up on sleep, eating healthy, doing absolutely nothing and enjoying summer.
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Wait, wait, wait. Am I actually sad because I am getting out of NCSSM? That's not how I planned to feel.... -
pre-curser to summer
Well, I am at home on a late Sunday afternoon. The sunshine is peaking through the trees outside and barely reaching inside of my room. This is just as I remembered my pre-NCSSM life. The same fresh smell mixed in with a nostalgic cool air from the air conditioner and the same lazy aesthetics of my cat laying around while I do work. I've missed ( Read more... )