Too tired..

[clotho]

You know - I have spent a long time running from this site. Not letting myself write about what I wanted to write about out of fear of what everyone else would think. I knew I would be judged because I'm still broken over my breakup - because I have other issues that I wanted to talk about - family problems, school problems, basic overall

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[dearmelynn]

I LOVE YOU!!

[nine]

and nick and i love you too. and you can be however you need to be around us (and i know that goes for evan and robin too)

[anonymous]

You know I am here for you AJ. I've been through that before as you know when I was 17... Medication helped me.. That with the change of locations. You should come and visit and hang with us for awhile..

Opps..

[darkness]

Me above... You know I love ya AJ. ;)

[fuzzyoctober]

I understand, and sympathize with you. I went through a horible break up and had a long period of time where I thought that I would never love another person. I hope that you can find solace in knowing that you are not the only person that has to suffer in this way. People hurt each other for no reason, or for reasons that we can't rationalize or understand, and the only thing we can do is move on as human beings and live our lives.

I hope that you find peace... I'm still looking for it.

[clotho]

Moving on is the key.... I haven't figured out how to do that. I don't necassarily want my relationship back - I just want to not feel anything for him period. I pray more to STOP loving than I pray to have love in my life.

But that isn't the biggest thing that is bugging me right now. It's everything - every little thing in my life. And I know that sounds whiny as all hell.. but I haven't felt good about anything in a long ass time. I live in a constant state of indifference and sadness and I haven't figured out how to get the hell out of this pit.

I hope that we both find peace. Thank you for your words.