More Job Angst

[cluebyfourgirl]

Oh yeah, I'm all angsty about my job again.  I need to vomit out my fears and frustrations around feeling like I can never get a handle on ALL of it.  I seem to be able to get parts of it under control - witness my deft arranging of an itinerary for a visiting guest a whole month in advance as opposed to the panicked three days before of my

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[cluebyfourgirl]

Thank you sweets, the bearhugs are very appreciated.

Sunday - 1:00 or 2:00 which ever works better for you. I'm thinking a re-do on that hazelnut brown butter cake; are you okay with a do over for our cake? It'll be the first do over but I really want to see if I can pull off a chiffon cake with a little more aplomb. If it sucks I've socked away some brownies in the freezer, just in case.

[zaftigvegan]

oh hun. no one person is perfectly capable and competent 100% of the time - what kind of world do we live in that puts this expectation on us? i know i suffer from this kind of thing a lot myself. i tend to chalk it up to my perfectionist tendencies but it would be a lot harder if there were workplace peers and superiors breathing down my neck about it all the time, too - is that what is happening?

[cluebyfourgirl]

Yeah, that's kinda what's happening. I'm okay with making mistakes; I mean really, I'm five months into a complicated job that I'm basically teaching myself in isolation, mistakes are going to happen and I'm learning and improving all the time. It's just this time it was very public and the boss I work for most is going to have to deal with some of the fall out as well as it sucking away over an hour of my morning today dealing with another supervisor.

And then I have some hard core perfectionist tendencies of my own. The above statements are from my rational brain. My non-rational brain is still all for hiding in the well under my desk.

[freakykitten]

If you could do it all easily, it would get boring!

It's a learning experience, and you're doing a great job. You're improving. And that's great.

Are people coming to you and saying your job is in jeopardy because you aren't performing up to expectations?

Why was the meeting canceled? Was it due to something that you did, or something out of your control? Sometimes meetings get canceled, yk?

I know this is unrelated, but I don't want to forget to tell you again... Donalds has that super hot sunrise tofu. They currently have at least 4 packages that I saw.

[cluebyfourgirl]

LOL! It totally would be boring.

Thank you for the reminders of what exactly I am learning and the competencies I'm adding to my arsenal - some very practical like your suggestion regarding time limited response windows, and some more nebulous like an understanding of what the research environment can entail. My job doesn't seem to be in jeopardy - other than my main supervisor, most people seem to be of the opinion that the majority of my wobblies are someone else's fault. (Why yes, that does make me feel even guiltier - but apparently I'm just built that way ::grin::)

I called David as soon as I read about the tofu - I totally expected him to drop the phone and go running to get some. Strangely he didn't. Maybe I'll have to stop on the way home and pick some up.