i want to defend myself to you
as if it would make a difference
..i know it wont make a difference.
you say ive changed.
well maybe its good that i changed instead of being the SAME as i was back in gr 8 and 9 and 10.
how can i say this without sounding like a hypercryte.
people never change
but ive changed
you know what ive changed.
the way i dress.
i ( Read more... )

So its when i read things and hear things that make me realize that everything in the past meant nothing.
i try'd to sit there and pretend that we were closer then what we really were.

you know what.
im just not going to type one of those entries that people have to guess what im writing about
ill jus lay it all out
who really cares anymore

i hate the ( Read more... )

I deleted him out of my life.
literally.
it was a simple as a click of a button
and then boom...
he's gone
i only wish it was as easy as a click of a button.
he never gave us chance to be.
but im looking too far into it.
it was either him or me.
we both had doubts
we both knew things would never be the same again
i just hate how i cared, but he didnt.
i think ( Read more... )

With you on my mind
and my heart held in your hands
screaming.
break me.


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Here we go again
im head over heals
and ready for my heart to break
but im happy.
stupid bitch get off my back and leave my boyfriend alone.

and i turn to music and contradict myself

drunken words are sober words
I know your jealous.
Get over it.
You lost your chance.

and it was when i was sitting there..looking at her just laying there so peacefull
"she's not in any pain anymore, it was for the best"
i cant stand to see everyone in so much pain
and theres nothing i can say to comfort anyone because theres really nothing no one can say to comfort me right now
i cant even write
i want the easy way out.
funeral tomorrow ( Read more... )

Maybe this isnt because of them
maybe after all it might just be me
Im the one that hates falling out
but maybe im the reason why we do
im stubborn and its the worst trait about me
but theres nothing i can do about it
im always right
im right about this.
this stupid fucking situation.. ya there are parts of it that im wrong.
but over all im right
theres ( Read more... )

i hate this

and i shouldnt, but i do ( Read more... )