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[cmgaretjax]

I want it to end the right way. I want to look back and remember it fondly as something that was new, better, worth it. I don't want it to tail off into oblivion - Just another infinitely slow approach to an asymptote that is higher than the last one, but still just as calmly serene about it's negative, but almost zero derivative. I want a shock

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[michellecabinet]

i think you are the only person i know who would equate love and loss to a math formula. wait, no. lisa l would do that too probably, seeing as how last time we were in a restaurant she drew a formula for maximum PDA allowed while other are eating using an integral of the man's arm to the surface area of the woman's body. hahaha, that was funny.....but seriously, sorry if i made you feel worse the other day, it wasnt my intent. i just wanted to help. and to tell you the truth, i had to read this twice to get the real life point you were making, because i am math and analogy stupid apparently.......

[agape720]

I don't think it ever feels right. No matter how it ends, if you were in love it always feels wrong.

I'll say that for me, you're right: the best thing was hanging out with new people, or rather, people I knew but hadn't spent much time with before. It made me discover new things about myself, and new things that I liked in other people. Those became things that I started to look for in a mate, and Ben models them very well- he's very different from my previous boyfriend.
So yes, new=good, and I think to some extent, you can make/seek that newness yourself.

[quiet_anonymity]

I think I know what you mean, it's the same feeling that inspires senior pranks in high school. People near the end of a chapter in their lives and they want something to make it really memorable, something to look back on and say, "I really lived."