sunday night

[cmhwak]

i havent slept for 3 days now and im on the verge of lashing out. ive stopped hearing most sounds and my vision has turned to a red glaze of something that looks like a rain coated windshield. somehow i push on through life. somehow i can not move to other rooms or sleep in a dark room. there is a chill in the air and every light in the home is on

Comments

[goodfights]

Hey. What is stopping you from sleeping? Maybe a lack of sleep is keeping something important from you. Maybe if you solve your sleep problem first, you can then work on something like your patience and things can get better. You don't have to smash crackers and take pleasure in other peoples suffering and remain on the verge of lashing out and all those other things. Relaxation is as good as sleep. Try reading a good book. Actually... books can teach a lot, in lieu of life. One thing they certainly can teach us is that friends actually aren't that difficult to make. Maybe I don't know you so well - hardly at all - but one thing I can tell so far is that you're not happy. I am. for now, I think I'm going to disconnect from you, but try to cheer up and wake up, ok? Or go put on a slipknot shirt and some eyeliner.

[cmhwak]

you must not know me too well to think this is actually me "ranting" on my live journal.

[goodfights]

I didn't say "ranting"... in fact I just understood as it as the type of thing you'd typically write. It's obvious you'd benefit from some rest, is all.

[cmhwak]

i know, i chose to call it ranting because that is what people use this for. maybe 30% of what i type into LJ is something ive actually done or thought (or eaten even). i slept for 11 hours last night and am rather happy. mostly because of the sweet girl below me.

[xfireworksx]

it's funny how worlds apart the weather's the same