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cmpitner1984

Hardest Post I have ever had to write....possibly my last

Nov 08, 2004 22:38

This is the hardest post that I have had to produce. And it very well may be my last. Or at least for a while.....a long while..... I just found out that what I told Meg was true. Marcia is gone from my life for good. And as much as it pains me to say I feel like a total wastebasket. People put things into me and somehow I make them stink. I must ( Read more... )

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I was crying when I wrote this, forgive me if it goes astray... ravenstarlight November 9 2004, 04:39:03 UTC

I am totally serious about the subject line. I am pretty much rendered speechless. (For once, the Raven has nothing to say...) I am too busy trying to hide the fact that I am bawling like a baby and attempting to keep the tears from spilling out of my eyes to think about much else. I don't want this to be your last post ever, I don't want your life to be over when it has just begun... you have so much to live for. (I know you don't think that, but trust me, there is.) There is so much I want to tell you, I don't even know where to begin!! You are not a wastebasket, you do not make everything stink, and to be honest, YOU ARE A WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND!!!!! That is speaking from the best friend point of view, from the sister in law point of view, I think you are a great brother too. What little brother doesn't drive his older siblings batty sometimes? You wouldn't be normal if you didn't. I would think there was something wrong with you. I don't know about son... I'm not your mother, but if I was, I would say that you are a wonderful son. ( ... )

Re: I was crying when I wrote this, forgive me if it goes astray... cmpitner1984 November 9 2004, 05:21:43 UTC

Its okay. I still feel that way. I do love myself,it just doesn't show when I have been hurt they way that i have. Tuna took all that away from me. Why in the hell do u think it hurts me so much???? I am about to cry 2 but I am not going to do it in front of you and/or William. I am not going to do it this time. Because.....I dont really know. I mean come on you werent there when the whole Tuna thing happened and finally crashed as a matter of fact you hated me at that time. I know that hurts but I cant do anything about the truth. That's exactly what I am talking about when I am saying that I am a bad brother okay? I mean I cant do anything right...just ask Toby. Well I dont even know what to say....cause I think that I even failed Amy as a friend....she needs help and I think I was supposed to be the one to help her. I think that I am the one that is going to have to help Kenny with his whole Andrea situation. There are two problems with that. I like Andrea.....and Kenny would kill me if he really knew how much ( ... )

dragonfire1689 November 10 2004, 20:30:39 UTC

bro you are a great guy and that is all i can say the rest of it falls on you to believe in yourself

Re: bro cmpitner1984 November 11 2004, 20:53:45 UTC

Hey man I am just going to say is this......Its just going to take a little bit more time to heal. I hope that you respond to this as well as Meg.

Re: bro dragonfire1689 November 12 2004, 20:45:09 UTC

i know it will but please realize that it will heal

ravenstarlight November 13 2004, 17:09:44 UTC

I agree, but if anyone says that time heals all wounds, they are crazy, cause it is love, not time that heals all wounds. **Raven**

Re: I agree cmpitner1984 November 13 2004, 21:11:23 UTC

Well I agree and hopefully I am going to be with a certain someone cause that would be nice and me and her are an unstoppable combo. If you only knew.....lol I am going to stop here and update later cause I have a couple of ppl to call at like 5.