Patience again

[cn_89]

Patience!

Rarrrrrrrrrrr.

Crap I don't like the feeling of sinking into one depression after another, getting one devastating result after another. I'm tired of facing failures. I need some elevating results, some achievement for me to assure myself I'm not a consummate idiot I think I am right now. It's simply dismaying walking out of some stupid

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[avante_garde]

hey dear (:

I read your angst and find some parts of it uncannily matching with what I feel sometimes too! You must NOT be disheartened ok? I guess I've learnt to accept that mugging can only bring one thus far; since I'm not remarkably smart nor remarkably tough (such that I can pull off ungodly hours of mugging), sometimes it is alrighty to waddle in midstream a bit yupyup =D

Expectedly chem H3 was a disaster, not to mention the chem class test which I, um, scraped some fortuitous pass. So guess what, you're not alone de don't always wring yourself tight tight tight with tight expectations, must be kind to yourself sometimes ok? I know it's hard, but still try? Suppose now the pressure is especially pronounced cause we're all swimming and clamouring for food in the same pond; but in the future we'll be off to better and more spacious aquatic habitats (:

Cheerup and <3 you!

[cn_89]

<3

Yup worry not I'll get over that vexation hopefully soon enough to catch up with revision for pending BLOCK TESTS. I like the way you put it, wringing myself tight tight tight lol. I guess it's what I've been doing quite unconsciously but now that you've put it down in words it looks like a really stupid thing to do. Thanks! :)

And how I long for the capacious place you talk about... haha.

[esh_ana]

haha i undst what it's like to feel "retarded". like just damn SLOW.

but ya. i guess sometimes we've no choice but to painfully pull ourselves out of whatever.. emoness. although it feels damn ugh and pek chek. but well, YOU'RE NOT ALONE. don't get too dejected =) jiayou!

[cn_89]

Thanks Mei! Haha slowness. There must be some way to perk myself up but I'm not quite getting it yet so BAH I'll just keep trying and keep trying and keep trying and keep trying and... yup. Yeah and I guess many people may be having the same "pek cek" feeling so... Jiayou to you too! :)

[wdq]

Hey honey you are not alone. I felt exactly the same way you did. There've been too many failures and set backs recently and things just don't work out the way they used to do. No matter how much effort I put into a test it's just nearly impossible to score. Perhaps I haven't tried hard enough or I simply lack the capability to perform.

I'm feeling really demoralised these days, seeing brains after brains all around me, it just feels totally totally horrible. I don't even have to mention those names. While peoople are flying off to diff parts of the world attending international competitions, writing ingenious scripts for physical systems, and here I am struggling with my school work. I'm such an idiot!!!! Yet I can't find anyone talk to, they just shrug me off saying I din do well because I din study. Crap I did but I just can't do well. Increasingly I'm doubting my ability to perform acadamically. I just really feel like.. a total failure.

[cn_89]

Hi honey...

What you wrote pretty much sums up what I'm feeling. I talked to cheryl some time ago and we were saying being where we are now (with the most unusually high brain density) it's almost impossible to feel like how we felt last time, when almost all of us were allowed enough room to shine. It seems like the school is merciless in its rites of seiving out the bestest from the bests and all the unreasonably hard tests that we have gone through (eg. H3 Chem which was impossibly long) were meant to be the way they are because only then the school would have a way of telling between the godlike figures and the slightly better off but painfully normal like ourselves.

In a sense it's good because it honours those who truly deserves it? Maybe we should change our mindset to one that's more accepting of who WE are...

And hey, next time people dao you when you feel like emoing, you can always come to me. :)