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that was his excuse. hes talking to another hostess. thats prolly why he stopped calling. stopped walking me out to my car. but he didnt tell me because he didnt want me to feel weird. thanks for considering my feelings. wtf. so yea last night someone told me about all this. that hes been hanging out with this gril a lot and that they are "talking." i was like "o really?" it was soo hard for me to hold back my tears after she told me. she was like "yea i heard that they have been hanging out a lot and they might be dating.."
so i was like heartbroken. i went back to roll silverware because i didnt want to talk to anyone or deal with anybody. then like 20 minutes later courtney ( a hostess) comes back and tells me that someone is up front for me and it looks like she is my sister. im like what? my sisters working...it was jaimie. so i get up there and shes like "you look happy to see us." and i told her "im not happy to be here right now. i found out something about tim." so yea i told her about it and then when i got home i wanted to text him and ask him if it was true. so i did. he didnt answer. so i said f this im calling his sorry ass. so i called him and im like "did u get my text?" and he said that he just got it. im like "well? is it true" then he said "yea but were not dating. shes just down for a couple months then she goes back to f.s.u."
im like ok thanks for the truth. then he tells me how they have been hanging out a lot and just been having fun. im just sitting there holding back the tears because i didnt want him to hear me cry. then he tries to make me feel better by saying "its not that i didnt have fun when we hung out.." im like "whatever.." then i said "thank you for telling me the truth. i heard from someone about this and im one that goes to the person to find out the truth.." and hes like "yea i didnt tell u because i didnt want you to feel weird.." i didnt know what to say. im too nice sometimes. i could of went off on him but i mean i work with the kid so it would feel even more weird if i yelled at him. more than it is going to be now. so yea if i said i was done with him before, now im really done. guys are assholes. i dont care what they say/think. they always end up hurting you in the end.