as tomorrow unravels
as tomorrow unravels
myungsoo-centric; g
1682 words
summary: this is how it is with Infinite
Myungsoo is never a morning person.
He is cranky in the mornings because his muscles ache and his head throbs as he makes his way to the bathroom to wash himself up. He groans when he catches sight of his reflection in the mirror, the dark circles around his eyes seem bigger with every passing day. As he examines his double eyelids, Myungsoo feels his crankiness level going a notch higher; he is exhausted even after sleeping.
Sunggyu saunters in and mutters a 'good morning', his eyes, lacking of make up, turns into narrower slits as he smiles a bit at Myungsoo. He nods and grunts in response, keeping his expression stoic, watching Sunggyu carefully squeeze some toothpaste onto his toothbrush. Mornings are never 'good', if Myungsoo was perfectly honest with himself, because they are just cold and tiring and makes him want to sleep till the sun is high up, all warm and inviting.
The table for breakfast has already been set up. Myungsoo cringes a little at the loudness of Dongwoo's voice this early in the morning, who greets him cheerfully. His facial muscles are asleep until he gets food in his system so Myungsoo just stares at Dongwoo. He walked over to Woohyun who motions for him to sit down as Sungyeol yells over the table for someone to pass him the coffee.
"I never knew you were born without hands, Sungyeol," Sunggyu quips but hands him the coffee anyway before nagging about how everyone should do things themselves if they have the ability to do so.
Myungsoo watches Woohyun rubs his temples as he asks the leader to be quiet for a bit because he has a headache. Myungsoo mentally gives Woohyun a high-five because Sunggyu stops talking, but only for five seconds, before launching into another nagging attack because he thinks Woohyun is being rude. Myungsoo sighs as Woohyun merely lowers his head and mutters an apology, unheard by Sunggyu, though, who already has turned his attention to Sungyeol and is nagging at him for drinking too much coffee.
Nothing comes in between Sungyeol and his coffee as he happily smiles into his cup, clearly ignoring the leader's incessant nagging. Myungsoo wants to tell Sunggyu to stop but Sungjong and Hoya suddenly exchange looks before bursting into laughter, immediately shutting Sunggyu up (he blinks at them in surprise with his incredibly small eyes and Myungsoo almost shoves a fist in his mouth to stop himself from laughing out loud at how stupid the leader looks). Myungsoo looks at Hoya and Sungjong curiously, marvelling at the close relationship between the two and how a look from each other can send them into fits of laughter.
"What's so funny?" Dongwoo laughs as well, despite not knowing anything, as he piles his plates with scrambled eggs.
Hoya shakes his head, still shaking with laughter, while Sungjong snorts a "Nothing, hyung!", looking at Hoya and smiling again. Dongwoo cocks his head to the side, indicating that he still doesn't get it. but he laughs along and teases Hoya about his "fangs". The managers come in and tell them to hurry up so they could get to practice quickly, impatiently tapping at their wristwatches. Myungsoo gulps his last bit of coffee, ignoring the bitterness of the caffeine before getting up. Hoya finally looks away from Sungjong and offers a small smile towards him. Myungsoo moves his facial muscles for the the first time that day and smiles back.
He doubts the fans know this but apart from Sungyeol, Myungsoo is closest to Hoya. The main dancer's the only person in Infinite he can be completely silent with and still be comfortable because he understands that not everything has to be said aloud. He decides that his own friendship with Hoya is pretty marvellous as well.
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It is sheer fatigue that is catching up with him because Myungsoo swears his arms and legs are going to fall off at the intensity of which they're aching. He leans against the mirrors, as he catches his breath and with his shirt soaked with perspiration, after six hours straight of dance practice. They were given a 15-minute break, not much, but it is better than nothing and Infinite understands that practice holds more importance. He knows his members value practice but that doesn't stop their faces from brightening up once the choreographers give them permission to rest.
He glances at Sunggyu who is already deep into 'break mode', talking to Dongwoo, his eyes disappearing as he laughs and Myungsoo wonders where he gets the energy to talk so much (or nag). Sungjong and Hoya sit a little further from him, Hoya holding the video camera that tapes them dancing just a while ago and carefully monitoring their dance routine. Sungjong praises him and Hoya smiles, telling the maknae that he has danced well too. Sungyeol approaches Myungsoo, almost limping, as he mumbles something about his back going to break soon.
Only Woohyun was left right smack in the center of the practice room, his hands holding their music sheets. The main vocalist belts out his lines and Myungsoo listens to him in awe. Even without background music and supporting vocals, Woohyun sounds amazing. But amazing to Myungsoo is vastly different from what is amazing to Woohyun as he goes over his parts repeatedly. For each line that he sings less than perfectly, Woohyun starts over; again and again until their break time is up. Woohyun doesn't know how to give up and if he wants perfection, he will work hard for it and this, is what that makes Myungsoo admires him so much (although he'd never admit it to Woohyun's face).
Myungsoo wonders how it'd be like if Woohyun goes solo; he'd probably be successful.
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It is during an interview that Myungsoo realises that he has never really experienced romantic love, despite all the love songs that he sings with Infinite.
He figures that it must be the reason why their vocal instructors keep telling him to sing with more emotions and drop his Ice Prince image while singing. Myungsoo sings louder, enunciates his words more and just tries harder but he doesn't always deliver the songs as well as the others (say, Woohyun). Maybe it is the emotions, after all.
The interviewer asks about past girlfriends and relationships and Myungsoo just smiles, confessing that he comes from an all-boys high school and has never had a romantic partner before. She merely nods, uninterested, before turning to the other members, repeating her question.
Dongwoo recounts memories of a certain girlfriend, how she cheated on him and Myungsoo is amazed at the wide smile on his face. Myungsoo wonders how it feels like to be in a relationship and to break away from it and he wonders if he can cope with all of it. His mother has always told him that he isn't good at expressing himself and even now, he doesn't quite know how to feel after hearing Dongwoo's story (although he already knew about it a long time ago).
He looks over at Dongwoo who is still having a cheerful expression on his face. Myungsoo suddenly remembers the fact that Dongwoo writes diaries and a thought dawns upon him. Maybe he writes away all his pain so he can be this cheerful everyday, Myungsoo thinks, just as Dongwoo bursts into laughter.
He reminds himself to get a diary like Dongwoo, maybe he can express himself better then.
-
For most part, Myungsoo likes rooming with Sungyeol because they're close friends and Sungyeol is great company. But he takes a long time to fall asleep (Myungsoo blames his caffeine intake) and he ends up talking too much before bedtime. It is perfectly fine if they have no schedules the next day but Sunggyu had sent them away just a while ago, reminding them that they have practice at 6.30am. It is close to 1am and Myungsoo really wants to sleep.
But he sits next to Sungyeol by the bunk bed, anyway, listening to him ramble on about the benefits of drinking coffee and how Sunggyu only nags at him because he doesn't know about the true benefits of it. Tuning Sungyeol out, Myungsoo enviously looks at Dongwoo who is already snoring softly and wishes that it is him sleeping instead.
After about half an hour, Sungyeol yawns and tells him that he's tired after so much talking and Myungsoo smiles because this means he could finally get some sleep.
But Sungyeol is Sungyeol and after living with him for this long, Myungsoo doesn't get surprised when his hyung opens his mouth again.
"If you're not, you know, in Infinite," Sungyeol asks as he climbs onto his bed. "What would you be doing right now?"
"Hyung, we just did an interview," Myungsoo replies, staring at the top bunk of the bed, a little annoyed because he really wants to sleep. He swears he wants to punch Sungyeol to sleep, "And I thought you're sleepy? I am!"
"Just answer it!"
"I don't know," Myungsoo turns to his side so he could be more comfortable. "Sleeping in my bed at home with Moonsoo, I guess?"
"I don't mean that, silly!" Sungyeol laughs a little. "I mean, like, your dreams?"
"Why don't you tell me what you'd be?"
Sungyeol tells him to wait as he thinks for an answer but after waiting for what seemed to be forever, Myungsoo hears him snoring instead.
"So much for thinking of an answer," Myungsoo snorts softly to himself, closing his eyes.
The best part of the day for Myungsoo is when he is about to fall asleep. All snug under his blanket, he rests his tired body and thinks about nothing. This is when he is the most Kim Myungsoo, not L or anyone else, and definitely a time when he does not have to deal with bone-breaking fatigue from practices or painfully awkward questions about things he never has experienced. He is just by himself as he falls into the depths of sleep before another day with Infinite unravels.
a/n: trying out a new writing style because idk lol i just feel like it. the long sentences and the excessive "and"s still exist though...initially wanted to pair myungsoo with someone but it didn't turn out that well because i realised that myungsoo is awkward and any long conversations with him is just ~beyond~ my writing skills (also because i am lacking so much imagination sigh) i'll write something better next time! (hopefully) thank you for reading ♥