MERRY CHRISTMAS!

[coasterchick]

I need to just learn to forget, and move on... all my pain is self inflicted and that pretty much has to stop. Time to focus on Chaya...

If only things could go back to the way they were so very long ago, and the only thing that keeps me hanging on , are the memories of the past and hoping that maybe in time they will come back once again.

Comments

[coulson_14]

God, I kno what u mean throughout this WHOLE entry. And I did something stupid. I called his cell phone...and when it got to his voicemail, i couldn't find the end button, i kept pushing talk, so i finally found it, and then my phone rang again, and i stupidly answered, and said hello. (and me saying hello was left as a voicemail) so yeah, he called back, and he's like did you call? i was like...nooo, i don't think so. he's like ok, that's all i wanted to know. so then i thought, well i should prob. tell him the truth. so i called back, and kelsey answered. (his girlfriend...my enemy) i was like is ryan there, she's like, yeah, but he can't talk to you right now. i was like ok w/e bye. so she was being immiture about the whole thing, but w/e. then me and her had this huge argument over the internet afterwards, which was hilarious. but as of today, i'm lookin up. i'm over him. and that's all there is to it. he's a whole nother person to me, and i don't like that new person. i liked the old ryan, and the old ryan is no-where to be seen

[coasterchick]

yeah i kno what you mean by him changin into a whole different person. gosh i hate it but i have to forget about it too. Download this song called "torn" it fits me and i think it would fit you too. Thank you for everything all your quotes have made it alot easier. I'm starting to delete pictures and things like that and everyday it seems to get a little easier but at the same time i'm wishin he would jsut come back, like a fairy tale where it works out in the end. But that isn't gonna happen. so its time to let go right? any way just call me if you need me! love ya xoxo