a realization...

[coastermaniac04]

i've come to notice that more often than not, livejournal is used for expressing feeling of anger, sadness, or unsatisfaction. sure, there's the occasional "hooray for me" post, but for the most part, people use this online blog for letting out the bad thoughts in their heads. why? it's quite therapeutic. and often, livejournal is checked at night

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no mushy sympathy. my story. empathy?

[phunmagoon]

aren't you some kind of actor? you're def the best one in the group. the best impersonator. I'm pretty mediocre too. I don't remember shit from HS, I used to be good in math, then I got to Alg 2 and sucked, went to being mediocre in it. I got straight A's in French, but I remember like 2 sentences' worth. AND I suck at the sports too :) Us artsy people just do for some reason. I do draw pretty well, but that's something I've been working very hard on for 17 years, no joke. AND I'm still not the best of my peers. My friend Gabi shows me up all the time. I'm so jealous of her abilities. Plus Inever progressed in painting, which is something I have to face everyday, there are so many paintings in the apt, in shingle it's a bummer sometimes. And John, I get pretty freakin lonely too. I still feel like I'm holding back from being myself around Team Rosen. Or that I'm constantly being judged. and I get lonely when I see them pair off, I can't hold hand or cuddled with my bf whenever I want like they can, and you know, our relationship

Re: no mushy sympathy. my story. empathy?

[coastermaniac04]

i'm gonna betch slap you, shetbaggg.

:) thanks for commenting. we're all in this together, arent we? feel free to talk to me if you ever have problems like last night. i'd love to be there for you.

Boo-Yah!

[damagedprincess]

I feel the same way, I usally post after my day has completed..I tend to post bad things and it makes me out to be the bad guy or depressed, its just my thoughts thrown in to one entry...So yeah..I know what your going thru..and damn it babae I always ask you how are you doing..lol! Your my babes and I have been talking to you ever since I had my first boyfriend..gosh..like 10 yrs..whoa. lol I love ya..Remember I got facebook damn it..lol check it out it..lol

[snochild04]

i'm not gonna tell you some fluffy duffy crap cause you already know that i think you're brilliant. i'm just gonna be selfish and talk about myself. so there!

the whole loneliness thing: me = ditto. only i have NEVER had anyone special in my whole life. i am 20 and no one has ever thought of me as special enough to be with. i am jealous all the time of everyone. all of our group at custard cup have been in relationships all cuddly while i'm sitting by myself in the middle of it. all of my nursing friends have their someone and they don't hesitate to remind me of it. my 13 year old cousin talks to me about his girlfriend. do i think something is wrong with me? yeah. and do i find myself beautiful? no.

so i guess i will be fluffy and say that you're not the only one. and you have been in relationships and even though they ended someone wanted to be with you and that's more than i can say.

[mmagoo24]

you know, they say it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all.

i'm pretty sure that's a bunch of bullshit.

because when you realize that the love you thought someone had for you wasn't actually true, it's more painful than the loneliness.

[snochild04]

your hot stephie poo, get used to it.

well... actually, i heard you cut your hair so that might change things...
kidding :)

[coastermaniac04]

at least i have my beyonce. :)

love you steph.

[darkside462]

"everyone has that one person that they call all the time. they've got that one person to say goodnight to at the end of the night. the one person they can hold hands with when we're all together. and then there's john."

i kinda resent this. despite what you think, there are millions of people in the world that don't have "someone", myself included.

[coastermaniac04]

the term 'everyone' in that paragraph was in reference to my current circle of orlando peeps. just to clear that up. holla.

[damagedprincess]

pssh fine...no love for your delaware peep! lol