i wish i were better at feeling comfortable with expressing my feelings. i express opinions with no problem, but when it comes to feelings, i have a hard time with that. why? because the expression of 'feelings' puts you in a very vulnerable position. that's the one thing in this world that i hate most: vulnerability. and that's exactly how i feel ( Read more... )

i'm sitting here, staring at this room of mine. there are piles and piles of shit lying everywhere. my life is pretty much spread out on my bedroom floor. is this unusual? no, not at all. but this time, it feels different. i feel like i have no place to put anything. it's a very odd feeling. it's a little too early to pack all of my things, but ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

uncertainty.

i like that feeling a lot.

true, it's confusing. it messes with your head. yes? no. yes? no. yes. no? the two words keep going in and out of my head. do i like that? no. but it's fun, i'll admit that.

don't really know where this side road is taking me, but it's a fun little journey, that's for sure.

i'm 20!

p.s. just to clear everyone up ( Read more... )

sex.
got your attention, didn't i?

that's right. this post is about sex. and love, of course. but mainly about sex. what was the first thing that came to your mind when you read that word? were you imagining a couple completely naked, on top of eachother, going at it? were you simply picturing two people innocently making out? or maybe you were just ( Read more... )

i can't even begin to count how many posts i have made about time, and how i never seem to have enough of it. and yes, this is going to be another one of those posts. why? because it's always on my mind. it's always happening. this is a dillemma that i seem to be facing every day, every month, every period of my life. i try to run away from it, but ( Read more... )

so i'm not really big on material posessions, but there's just so many things i want right now. it's just a little bit ridiculous. i keep seeing some kind of material posession and being like "i have to have that!"

why does money have to control everything? or maybe..why does money have to be so hard to access? yeah, that's a better question.

i want ( Read more... )

( Read more... )