Dear Friends ( Read more... )

I'm now a cashier at superstore. So far it's pretty good. Tomorrow I start school again. Hopefully my life will finally start to improve soon.

You always wanted a lover ( Read more... )

http://chekov.darktech.org/andrewa/2005-08-31/

I spend so much time
Believing all the lies
To keep the dream alive
Now it makes me sad
It makes me mad at truth
For loving what was you 
...
Now I close my eyes
And I wonder why
I don’t despise
Now all I can do
Is love what was once
So alive and new
But it’s gone from your eyes
I’d better realise

"Eyes Without a Face" - Billy Idol

No sooner had I gotten a second chance and then it's over now, for good. The past week has been such a roller coaster of emotions that I don't know how or what I feel right now. I'm just crushed...that's the only way to describe it. Crushed.

Things are a million times better now. I realized that I was making a huge mistake so I fixed it. Officially, we simply underwent a Relationship Re-evaluation. I even managed to make it through the bonfire last night. Then Megan came to church with me this morning, and I was really happy. It meant a lot to me. Superstore called and practically ( Read more... )

Everything seems so surreal right now. I keep thinking that I'll wake up tomorrow and everything will be the same as always.

I feel like such an asshole right now. Thanks to this fucking depression, I've just gone and ended what meant most to me. Last night I totally misinterpreted things and made up my mind things were already over, so I started trying to prepare myself for the end. Well then today I found out that all she really wanted to do was talk to me and work ( Read more... )

Well lets see... life has been hell for the last while. I've been so depressed. I'm sure you've all noticed. It's pretty hard to miss. It finally got really so bad that I saw my doctor and he gave me a prescription for anti-depressants and made an appointment for me to see a counselor. When I first started taking the meds my mood swings got even ( Read more... )