so.....4 months pregnant makes me extra large.
I never thought i would be this fat so early.
and lucky me....i have the whole summer to be nice and "ripe" 
which probably means i'll be a huge, hot, miserable mess.
ha.

So, i wouldn't really say things are looking up for me yet.
I'm just trying to look on the brighter side of things.
i have found a source ( Read more... )

So heres the down low yo.
I'm trying extremely hard to keep my head up these days.
(forgive me....but arent ljs for bitching and moaning anyway?)
i'm almost 14 weeks pregnant.....which means im about 3 1/2 months.
that guy.....from the last entry is the dad.....or shall i say "sperm donor"
um.....everything was all peachy until i just flat out got fed ( Read more... )

i've never thought of myself as a naive girl...
however, recently i've fallen into that category.
i have never felt so dumb and used.
i met this guy and we were together every single day and night for 4 months.
basically he moved in.
worst idea ever.
i let the motherfucker stay there for free.....eat my food......use my car....
...as everyone predicted he ( Read more... )

i think somewhere within the month i forgot livejournal existed.
no wonder i have so much pent up rage......i havent been here to vent.
ha

well.....i probably live the most boring life EVER. work, sleep, eat, shit, think, drink.
finish and repeat.

its really hard to believe its been almost a year since i graduated.
this past year has been a blur......its ( Read more... )

i need to clean up my act
i feel like such white trash.

drinking, smoking, and saying fuck everyother word is getting old.

people have such screwed up impressions of me
apparently i make my boyfriends friends "uncomfortable"
i can't figure out why
perhaps its the fact that i dont say much......and when i do im a raging bitch.
or maybe its the way i look ( Read more... )

im realizing more and more each day that im a very jealous person.
im also quite bitchy
...and snap at anyone if they say the wrong thing to me.

someone should duct tape my mouth shut before i say something that hurts.

poop.....sex and the city comes on in 10 minutes.
but andys watching a movie.
and if i miss it i might get bitchy.....ahem^^

i just need ( Read more... )

so um my dad got out of prison on thursday.
it was really weird seeing him for the first time in 2 years.
it breaks my heart to see anyone i love in the situation he's in.
he just kinda stared off into space like he was thinking about deep shit.

i dunno......

so latley ive been hanging out with crazy people.
how i got involved with them......i dont know.
( Read more... )

so......today WAS good
although its not so good anymore.

i want closure damnit
i think i deserve that much.

people should start acting their age
...you're almost 20
this game your playing is childish
and not to sound full of  myself.....but im too good of a person to put up with such nonsense

it smells like spring outside.
that makes me happier than ive been in a long time.
i <3 spring time
:]

PLUS its supposed to rain today
yay

...i feel pretty good

things arent so bad i suppose

with each passing day i get a little stronger.....i guess

eh
sometimes being a bitch is the only thing left to hold on to.

ps. my boobs are so huge, i feel like if i move them the wrong way....they'll explode.
i wish i had cute dainty boobies.