all the other girls here are stars, you are the northern lights
here are two out of the three 'five things' lists that i wrote for lessthangreat, and pretty much only for her 'cause they're bandom related. but if you think that might tickle your fancy, then by all means, i encourage you giving it a shot. (dear rapsun, i'm starting work on your lists next.)
five times that spencer embarrassed himself in front of jon and wanted to kill himself (or ryan and/or brendon)
1. it was at their first time attending a party with all the fbr people. pete had insisted that they had to come because what was the point of signing them if he couldn’t “show off his pretty new toys, seriously.” and spencer wasn’t fooled, he wasn’t, because he totally saw ryan go all moon-eyed at that (even though ryan would spend the next few years denying his man-crush on pete). So there he was, sipping a diet coke and talking to william beckett-who, word had it, was kind of a big deal on the chicago scene-when this guy, this scruffy, frat-boy looking guy, stumbled over, laughing as he threw an arm around william’s tiny, tiny waist and said “bill. billiam, tom has been looking everywhere for you.” and as william excused himself, this guy, he turned back to spencer and he smiled. spencer felt like his head was suddenly trying to float away from his body. he motioned behind him to where he last saw ryan, said “um, i should…” and then tripped over his own feet.
2. he’d never admit to it, but the reason spencer left the room so quickly after the phone call to brent was because he didn’t want brendon and ryan see that he was about to lose his shit. he had just turned the corner that lead to the elevators when he collided with another body. jon had grabbed his shoulders to steady him and said “whoa, shit. sorry, spence i didn’t-hey. hey, are you okay?” spencer nodded and looked away, tried to discreetly wipe at his nose, but he knew jon had to have seen. if he did, though, he never mentioned it again.
3. on the night before jon was supposed to fly out for chicago-which was also the last night of the tour and what was supposed to be the end of jon’s run as panic’s temporary bassist-spencer agreed to have a few celebratory drinks with him and brendon. later, when it was just spencer and jon sitting on top of their empty tour bus, feet swinging and occasionally thumping the side, spencer said, in a dramatic whisper, “it’s probably a good thing you’re leaving us, jon walker, because i think this crush i have on you could’ve become a problem.” then he kissed jon’s cheek and rested his head on jon’s shoulder. jon just smiled and kept looking at the ground way below them. the next day ryan told spencer he thought they should make jon’s place permanent.
4. once he and ryan had teamed up against jon and brendon in order to mock their extensive knowledge of disney lyrics, when brendon, in what spencer felt was a complete low blow, said “hey spence, remember that time I caught you singing ‘hit me baby one more time’ into your hairbrush? remember that time, spencer smith?” and spencer ducked his and said “shut up, shut up” while jon laughed and ryan studied his face and said “wow, i don’t think that color pink occurs naturally in nature.”
5. spencer was sick. he was sick and jon was standing in front of him, looking worried and saying “just hang in there, okay? don’t die ‘cause ryan went to get the doctor and he’d be really pissed if i let you die.” he brushed spencer’s damp hair away from the sweaty skin of his forehead and said “you’re still pretty, don’t worry. i was gonna tell you about me being kind of in love with you tonight, but i guess that can wait?” then spencer opened his mouth to respond and threw up on jon’s shoes.
five times that pete proposed to patrick in all seriousness (but was laughed off)
1. about thirty minutes after they first met when patrick opened his eyes after finishing the song, twisted the hem of his ugly argyle sweater between his hands and said “um, that was… was that okay?”
2. after a party where fucking joe convinced pete to try some of his “special blend” and patrick had to drive both of them home while joe snored loudly in the backseat of the van and pete made up dirty limericks centered around patrick’s name.
3. on stage in between songs during the second concert of their first headlining tour. patrick had just kept his head ducked and fiddled with his guitar, a small smile tugging at the side of his mouth, while pete said into the mic, “come on, guys, maybe if you cheer loud enough he’ll say yes!”
4. written hastily on a greasy napkin at a diner in the middle of bumfuck, whothehellknowswhere and slid across the table in an attempt to make a sullen-looking patrick smile. it worked.
5. every other monday.
five times that spencer embarrassed himself in front of jon and wanted to kill himself (or ryan and/or brendon)
1. it was at their first time attending a party with all the fbr people. pete had insisted that they had to come because what was the point of signing them if he couldn’t “show off his pretty new toys, seriously.” and spencer wasn’t fooled, he wasn’t, because he totally saw ryan go all moon-eyed at that (even though ryan would spend the next few years denying his man-crush on pete). So there he was, sipping a diet coke and talking to william beckett-who, word had it, was kind of a big deal on the chicago scene-when this guy, this scruffy, frat-boy looking guy, stumbled over, laughing as he threw an arm around william’s tiny, tiny waist and said “bill. billiam, tom has been looking everywhere for you.” and as william excused himself, this guy, he turned back to spencer and he smiled. spencer felt like his head was suddenly trying to float away from his body. he motioned behind him to where he last saw ryan, said “um, i should…” and then tripped over his own feet.
2. he’d never admit to it, but the reason spencer left the room so quickly after the phone call to brent was because he didn’t want brendon and ryan see that he was about to lose his shit. he had just turned the corner that lead to the elevators when he collided with another body. jon had grabbed his shoulders to steady him and said “whoa, shit. sorry, spence i didn’t-hey. hey, are you okay?” spencer nodded and looked away, tried to discreetly wipe at his nose, but he knew jon had to have seen. if he did, though, he never mentioned it again.
3. on the night before jon was supposed to fly out for chicago-which was also the last night of the tour and what was supposed to be the end of jon’s run as panic’s temporary bassist-spencer agreed to have a few celebratory drinks with him and brendon. later, when it was just spencer and jon sitting on top of their empty tour bus, feet swinging and occasionally thumping the side, spencer said, in a dramatic whisper, “it’s probably a good thing you’re leaving us, jon walker, because i think this crush i have on you could’ve become a problem.” then he kissed jon’s cheek and rested his head on jon’s shoulder. jon just smiled and kept looking at the ground way below them. the next day ryan told spencer he thought they should make jon’s place permanent.
4. once he and ryan had teamed up against jon and brendon in order to mock their extensive knowledge of disney lyrics, when brendon, in what spencer felt was a complete low blow, said “hey spence, remember that time I caught you singing ‘hit me baby one more time’ into your hairbrush? remember that time, spencer smith?” and spencer ducked his and said “shut up, shut up” while jon laughed and ryan studied his face and said “wow, i don’t think that color pink occurs naturally in nature.”
5. spencer was sick. he was sick and jon was standing in front of him, looking worried and saying “just hang in there, okay? don’t die ‘cause ryan went to get the doctor and he’d be really pissed if i let you die.” he brushed spencer’s damp hair away from the sweaty skin of his forehead and said “you’re still pretty, don’t worry. i was gonna tell you about me being kind of in love with you tonight, but i guess that can wait?” then spencer opened his mouth to respond and threw up on jon’s shoes.
five times that pete proposed to patrick in all seriousness (but was laughed off)
1. about thirty minutes after they first met when patrick opened his eyes after finishing the song, twisted the hem of his ugly argyle sweater between his hands and said “um, that was… was that okay?”
2. after a party where fucking joe convinced pete to try some of his “special blend” and patrick had to drive both of them home while joe snored loudly in the backseat of the van and pete made up dirty limericks centered around patrick’s name.
3. on stage in between songs during the second concert of their first headlining tour. patrick had just kept his head ducked and fiddled with his guitar, a small smile tugging at the side of his mouth, while pete said into the mic, “come on, guys, maybe if you cheer loud enough he’ll say yes!”
4. written hastily on a greasy napkin at a diner in the middle of bumfuck, whothehellknowswhere and slid across the table in an attempt to make a sullen-looking patrick smile. it worked.
5. every other monday.