it's my last day of being 19!
i will be twenty on the 15th of july.
it's been a tough year yonghui, i give you a reassuring pat on the back. i know what you've been through. your concerns pale in comparison to those really in need, but i know all your frustrations and down times when there really just isn't anywhere to go or anything more to do but you weren't allowed to let go and you couldn't let go and still cannot let go. and fears.
so many roadblocks put up and places shut down and they all made the pool of creativity drain dry. and sapped the will to be anything or do anything worthwhile.
i wonder how long more you'll continue like this! it would be a life wasted living, and you've only got one of it.
it sounds all nice to finally be an adult and to be responsible and firmly rooted to the ground, away with the fleeting bouts of concentration and determination in will but absolute lack of motivation in action.
i haven't laughed in a long time. the real kind that lasts forever and ever and ever and takes so much effort to stop. just the opposite, much too often and so absurd it hurts my pride. i wonder what our fate was in our past lives, that i have to suffer such in this life.
and i wonder if it's already too late since that time so many years ago when you really felt what it meant to be all encompassing and compassionate but couldn't accept it and tucked it away and after so many years the opportunity in this life may have rusted shut. that thought is pretty scary.
but whether you or i like it or not the days are still passing, maybe you'll finally run and catch up.. soon.
it's been a tough year yonghui, i give you a reassuring pat on the back. i know what you've been through. your concerns pale in comparison to those really in need, but i know all your frustrations and down times when there really just isn't anywhere to go or anything more to do but you weren't allowed to let go and you couldn't let go and still cannot let go. and fears.
so many roadblocks put up and places shut down and they all made the pool of creativity drain dry. and sapped the will to be anything or do anything worthwhile.
i wonder how long more you'll continue like this! it would be a life wasted living, and you've only got one of it.
it sounds all nice to finally be an adult and to be responsible and firmly rooted to the ground, away with the fleeting bouts of concentration and determination in will but absolute lack of motivation in action.
i haven't laughed in a long time. the real kind that lasts forever and ever and ever and takes so much effort to stop. just the opposite, much too often and so absurd it hurts my pride. i wonder what our fate was in our past lives, that i have to suffer such in this life.
and i wonder if it's already too late since that time so many years ago when you really felt what it meant to be all encompassing and compassionate but couldn't accept it and tucked it away and after so many years the opportunity in this life may have rusted shut. that thought is pretty scary.
but whether you or i like it or not the days are still passing, maybe you'll finally run and catch up.. soon.