I sat outside today from 8 to 5....in my toll booth reading....If only it were more educational instead of self satisfying and self demoralizing....Some fun articles but i shoulda picked up a book on greek instead of a magazine that had articles on hot summer fashion and doubling your sexual confidence then telling me things I knew but didn't wanna ( Read more... )

Well we celebrated BHJ's bday on Tuesday what a wild nite....I had way more than I wanted to drink but it was delish drove home....not the worlds best idea but was fine at the time...yikes....THEN played golf on wed and then went to the Casino. I found a new addiction and its called the casino. BUT he came down to surprise me on Monday nite. Very ( Read more... )

So today I had to work over and tomorrow i have to help cover a girls shift so I don't get to go out drinking.......heavily that is lol. I have to work at 645 so i didn't stay out late. My mom woke me up early to see my great aunt margret who is stupendous and my other cousins? Glen and Cheryl. Cheryl is crazy shes like 6'1 big nose, BIG GAUDY ( Read more... )

I know i've said this like 30x in the past couple days but its just something thats really bothering me. There is plenty of other things going on in my life but my parents fighting is just horrible. Its not even like they are fighting like normal people w/yelling or screaming and throwing of vases. They are like mimes w/o arms. Fighting but you can ( Read more... )

so after re-reading what I wrote last nite everything makes sense minus my last paragraph. I don't know how it got so confusing b/c i was fine but that must have been the time that bacardi kicked in...I'm officially making a cut off for me. No more than 6 beers. AND no more drinking to deal w/my problemos. Its gunna be new me. SO i guess I'll be ( Read more... )

so I started one journal and got caught off but i can't seem to find the words to say what i really mean....so what i feared of coming true really has......MY mom after 21 yrs plus had decided that life w/my dad is really not worth living for....and its not like they've been fighing for the past yr really bad things have been better. My dad has as ( Read more... )

Today well last nite I realized that my parents are sleeping in seperate rooms. I don't know whats up w/that. They have been seeming kinda happy around each other when you dont take in the fact that my dad is having some weird midlife crisis or something.... I just thought that my sister had a friend over and that there was a new clock in my old ( Read more... )

So yesterday was 3 months that i've been w/BHJ. Thats like 90 days. I guess really not that long but for me thats like the longest standing relationship unlike the previous 4 month one that ended up not being a relationship. I actually have a date when we did like start seeing each other i've never done that before hence this must be fate. Still ( Read more... )

Today I got a cavity fixed so half of my mouth is numb its wearing off now b/c i can move the other side of my mouth now, I can only raise the left side of my mouth so when I do my mischeivous smile its super creepy/cool well at least thats what i've been hearing so far today. lol and i'm trying to blow on my tots to cool them down and its funny b/ ( Read more... )

"To Alcohol the cause and solution of all lifes problems" oh its soo true Homer J. Preach on brother. Well its friday nite and I worked from 230 till 11 something and now I am sitting here, drinking beer by myself. Its friday nite right...ugh its poopy. It wouldn't be so bad if i knew everyone else wasn't doing anything fun or exciting but lol why ( Read more... )