my mind is racing and it 4 in the morning...i keep staying up.. i cant sleep and it is because life is complicated. I feel the best i do about myself in so long. And im happy ive smiled all day today and yesterday too....i cant be sure why i have no particular thing that makes me this way.I made cindy mad tonight..i thought i would tell her that i ( Read more... )

i woke up so early this morning for work and i dont know how i did it i had about 2 hours of sleep last night. I got there at 5am and stayed till about 2pm. I was going to have to wait for my dad to pick me up at 3:30 but i got lucky and got a ride. Ive been reading this book on vietnam called a life in a year...its so crazy..combat is a force in ( Read more... )

so tonight is another night that sucks....i just got off work and came home no one was here which was surprising...i hear people got grounded and some were busy..and other had other plans..so i dont get to see anyone except for lisa and john but there leaving and i know what will happen if i go so im staying..BUT!..my friend jack will keep me ( Read more... )

yesterday i seen steph at a stoplight and honestly it hurt me like a kick in the nuts....i miss her and love her...still...i wish it would go away stupid me..oh well i worked today and afterwards i went to the movies to see sin city..i guess i was supposed to meet some friends there..but for what ever came to be no one showed up..im not mad i was ( Read more... )

today was fun....went to sarahs to see her photograph angela...she actually told me some kewl stuff about it...interesting..i did everything i could to be silly or wait i was being myself oh well heh....i know the pictures will turn out awesome sarah is very creative and angela is really pretty....so yes after that i came home and got to hang out ( Read more... )

Dont assume things its bad "dont you ever think stupid"...im slowly learning im not the same person...ive changed so much in the last couple years....the army and my relationships with people friends and girlfriends..they just have made such an impact...i feel ugly right now...very ugly and i will watch after the sunset and it will make me feel ( Read more... )

im listening to quiet riot..i dont know why i just felt like downloading them.I have never been shy or closed off about the way i feel about things with anyone or anything. So why is it i am now. Something has to change once more i need less work. so long and goodnight

derrick

i like being a trend whore so here it is ( Read more... )

last night!....show at engine room...the first band sucked some nfg wannabees who sucked at it from katy...james told the singer they sucked..so he turns around and starts talkin crap..sees james and shuts up and walks away it was funny...almost hilarious even....the second band though...lost city angels...oh god...old school sounding east coast ( Read more... )

last night was really great...even though i didnt really drink hardly...there wereso many people there...so many beautiful faces i havent seen in awhile...watchin drunk people is the best..dancing and such...late night sex romp that no one wanted to see...in the words of amber "thats the whore over there on the couch"....tommy and stone will be ( Read more... )