Christmas comes late this year
Taking his hand, she walks.
Along the beach her feet sink into the sand, and she is happy for the moment.
They stop along a large pile of boulders, resting upon them.
He takes her in his arms and simultaneously they glance toward the setting sun.
The sky begins to turn from vibrant yellows and oranges to subtle blues and purples that provoke a feeling of calmness.
As the waves crash against the shore, a silent tear falls down her cheek, landing on his and he hugs her tighter and then turns to her.
Why the tears… he asks with a voice so soft that the sound of the water, barely allows it to be audible.
I need you, she responds in a whisper. Why does it have to be this way?
Her question causes him to turn away, and when he looks back tears are also streaming down his face.
You know why… I can’t leave her.
But I need you she repeats and now the silent tears are constant sobs, causing her once flawless mascara to create a stream of black down the side of her face.
Yet he finds her beautiful. Beautiful as she always has been, with fair skin complimented by light brown hair that shimmers in the sun. Green eyes that seem to penetrate to his soul, knowing exactly where his heart lies, but not understanding why he cannot follow it. Her hands are soft and delicate, and when they play over his stomach he shivers. Her body seems to fit perfectly with his, and he knows they were made for each other.
But he can’t be with her.
Another woman has taken her place, by one night where things were awry. A girl who meant something but never what she did. And so now he paid the consequences… the consequences of losing his true love for a false one he had never asked for.
Now he was an expecting father, and he couldn’t leave her or the baby, he was better than that.
And so they sit in silence… letting the waves crash against the shore...
The sun setting off in the distance as a symbol of the paradise they will never attain…
So tonight I'm having Christmas. My mom was gone all weekend so we waited to open presents till tonight. I think this Christmas is the weirdest I've ever had. Never have I slept in till 11 o'clock, my brother always gets me up around 8 and drags me into the living room to open presents. Not this Christmas. Never have I had a Christmas where my whole family wasn't together. Ever since I can rememember its been the four of us, opening presents followed by a huge dinner with the rest of the family. Not this Christmas.
I guess in its own way its still special, but at the same time, its definitely not my favorite or most memorable. Although I'm sure it will stick in my memory due to its differentness.
I wish I had something exciting and in-depth to say, but in reality I don't. I guess as of lately my life has been kind of BLAH. I guess you could say thats how I've been feeling as well. BLAH. I mean I can be with the people I care about and still feel empty. I don't know why, but it happens and theres absolutely nothing I can do about it.
In more exciting new, I just downloaded like a gazillion songs...which I have to find time to listen to sometime soon.
Artists include: Armor for Sleep, Static Lullaby, Bright Eyes, Brand New, Cursive, Coheed and Cambria, Dashboard Confessional, The Get Up Kids, From Autumn to Ashes, Finch, Guster, Jimmy Eat World, My Chemical Romance, Mae, Our Lady Peace, Senses Fail, Thrice, The Used, The Spill Canvas, Senses Fail, Taking Back Sunday, Underoath, With Broken Wings, and Weezer.
Yeppers. Well Hope you all had a Happy Holiday!
Much Luv, Kari
Along the beach her feet sink into the sand, and she is happy for the moment.
They stop along a large pile of boulders, resting upon them.
He takes her in his arms and simultaneously they glance toward the setting sun.
The sky begins to turn from vibrant yellows and oranges to subtle blues and purples that provoke a feeling of calmness.
As the waves crash against the shore, a silent tear falls down her cheek, landing on his and he hugs her tighter and then turns to her.
Why the tears… he asks with a voice so soft that the sound of the water, barely allows it to be audible.
I need you, she responds in a whisper. Why does it have to be this way?
Her question causes him to turn away, and when he looks back tears are also streaming down his face.
You know why… I can’t leave her.
But I need you she repeats and now the silent tears are constant sobs, causing her once flawless mascara to create a stream of black down the side of her face.
Yet he finds her beautiful. Beautiful as she always has been, with fair skin complimented by light brown hair that shimmers in the sun. Green eyes that seem to penetrate to his soul, knowing exactly where his heart lies, but not understanding why he cannot follow it. Her hands are soft and delicate, and when they play over his stomach he shivers. Her body seems to fit perfectly with his, and he knows they were made for each other.
But he can’t be with her.
Another woman has taken her place, by one night where things were awry. A girl who meant something but never what she did. And so now he paid the consequences… the consequences of losing his true love for a false one he had never asked for.
Now he was an expecting father, and he couldn’t leave her or the baby, he was better than that.
And so they sit in silence… letting the waves crash against the shore...
The sun setting off in the distance as a symbol of the paradise they will never attain…
So tonight I'm having Christmas. My mom was gone all weekend so we waited to open presents till tonight. I think this Christmas is the weirdest I've ever had. Never have I slept in till 11 o'clock, my brother always gets me up around 8 and drags me into the living room to open presents. Not this Christmas. Never have I had a Christmas where my whole family wasn't together. Ever since I can rememember its been the four of us, opening presents followed by a huge dinner with the rest of the family. Not this Christmas.
I guess in its own way its still special, but at the same time, its definitely not my favorite or most memorable. Although I'm sure it will stick in my memory due to its differentness.
I wish I had something exciting and in-depth to say, but in reality I don't. I guess as of lately my life has been kind of BLAH. I guess you could say thats how I've been feeling as well. BLAH. I mean I can be with the people I care about and still feel empty. I don't know why, but it happens and theres absolutely nothing I can do about it.
In more exciting new, I just downloaded like a gazillion songs...which I have to find time to listen to sometime soon.
Artists include: Armor for Sleep, Static Lullaby, Bright Eyes, Brand New, Cursive, Coheed and Cambria, Dashboard Confessional, The Get Up Kids, From Autumn to Ashes, Finch, Guster, Jimmy Eat World, My Chemical Romance, Mae, Our Lady Peace, Senses Fail, Thrice, The Used, The Spill Canvas, Senses Fail, Taking Back Sunday, Underoath, With Broken Wings, and Weezer.
Yeppers. Well Hope you all had a Happy Holiday!
Much Luv, Kari