scared
excited
optimistic
in love
sick
cold
woozy

the newest chapter in my life is about to start, and i am terrified! but excited... my mum keeps telling me that i should calm down or else ill get myself sick again
but life is just starting and i couldnt be happier! other than im broke.. but i'll figure that out when i get there. finally some

my face is so stuffed with snot i feel like it might make me black out, of drown me! allergies can suck sack. when i talk on the phone now everyone makes fun of me! and as i speak i can feel my ears popping! it is terrible, and i making me depressed/angry! i am a ball of emotion ( Read more... )

so basically i feel incompetent.not even incompetent, stagnant. its weird. i feel like in the last while i have been going back in my development or something. for example my social skills seem to be lacking, tremendously. i recently went out to see an old friend of mine and once in the middle of 'the act' decided that this was not ok, and left, ( Read more... )

finaly catching up on sleep can be so strange... i just woke after having weird 'sexy' dreams of kim gordon and thurston moore. Which included video games being played in 'real life' virtual reality style, and some sort of terrible lotion. anyways it was just feverish and terrible, yet strange, in a satisfying way. I must be over tired from lolla ( Read more... )

the angry yelling of those dispatchers aorund me is irritating like no other. somehow i think that my patience is fleeting, which is somewhat disconcerting, as i used to have unlimited stores of it for all those incompetent people in my life. i can no longer babysit because i can no longer put up with whineing children, who have been spoiled so ( Read more... )

the last few days seem to be taking everything out of me. i have been so tired lately it has been silly, there has been no end to my sleeps, they just seem to run on to each other and when i am awake i am so hot that i dont want to touch anything for fear of melting on to the surface ( Read more... )

today is one of those days that seems to be dragging on forever. this is why i am returning to journal once again after a year of dormancy. today seems so long and tedious, i think that working on a daily basis is breaking my spirit. which is a little sad, but i think that it will inspire me to go on to better things eventually... this is my hope ( Read more... )

prom ( Read more... )

today was the worst day ive had in a long time, seeing as i stayed up all night last night to finish that goddamn law project i was extremely irritable, and i was well aware of this, and chose to distance myself from everyone with the knowledge that i would just get frustrated. on the little sleep i had, i walked to school to practice my ( Read more... )

i'm sitting here at 2:23 in the morning.. working at 2 projects to be presented today... i don't plan on sleeping, i plan on staying up, watching the sunrise... then i believe i will trample off to kinkos to make overheads. i have managed to catch a couple minutes of sleep on my dinning room floor, i didn't want to go anywhere comfortable, because ( Read more... )