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[col_kira_nerys]

What is the scariest thing that has ever happened to you?I suppose it was discovering how easy it would be to stop fighting and grow comfortable with little things -- to let family and friends matter more to me than the world in which they were living, to smile and learn to compromise. I have an image in my mind of myself reflected in a mirror,

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[legate_damar]

I think there is a time and a place for everything. Despite what your fears taht in the end your own needs will come before the needs of your people I think it's safe to say that will never happen. You are far too strongwilled and determined to fall or falter like that. Although I understand your fears all the same.

Besides if you believe that it is frightening to fall prey to such selfish desires, then imagine how much more scary it is to discover, only too late that through these desires you have become the very thing you despised. I know because I've been there...

[col_kira_nerys]

I've seen myself as the thing I most despised, in the alternate universe with Kira Nerys as the Intendant, and I think that really helped me to understand how easy it would be to convince myself that what was best for me would be best for everyone. I wonder sometimes if that was how I found the strength not to kill Dukat and my mother when the Orb let me travel to the time when they met; no matter how awful things were under Dukat, Bajor is in a better place now, and I was afraid that if I let my own spite and wish for revenge dictate what I thought was best, something much worse could have taken its place...Gul Darhe'el in Dukat's position, or an early Dominion invasion

[legate_damar]

He grows thoughtful to her words as he begins to understand what she is trying to say.

It's so easy to get caught up in our fury and need for revenge that it's hard to step outside and see things for what they really are. It takes a very strong will to be able to do just that. I admire your ability to be able to understand this and realize that sometimes things happen as they do for the greater good of the future.

Damar goes silent at her final remarks as he realizes she has a point he never considered. Feeling a little comforted by her words he gives her a wry smile which soon fades as he grows serious.Knowing me I probably would have done just that, or something even more stupid like attempt to kill the Founder in a fit of fury. Only to end up losing my life, along with my families nevermind how many more innocents because of it. It's just doesn't seem right that so many innocent lives had to be thrown away because I was so busy trying to run away from the truth. I'm glad that in the end I did come to my senses, that fortunately

[col_kira_nerys]

For what it's worth, some people never do learn...it seems that Kai Winn never did, and Gul Darhe'el never did, and Dukat went mad rather than face his demons. You know I killed Cardassians in the Resistance -- usually soldiers, but sometimes civilians who just happened to be in my way -- I even killed Bajoran collaborators. I'm not proud of what I did but I know that I did what I believed was right at the time, and it's probable I'd make the same decisions if I had my life to live over again, for the lessons I learned and for the end which I've always told myself justified the means.