My heart is screaming at me. It's mad that I haven't been able to fulfill it's needs after 3 decades of being on this world. I haven't felt this kind of anxiety in a long time and I don't know why this suddenly hit me. I don't want to say it's due to my friend getting married in the near future because that would be a shit mindset to have. But ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a long time. A very long time ( Read more... )

I still love her ( Read more... )

This was the worst morning I'v had in a long time. I was very close to being in a high speed head-on collision. I avoided it by driving off the road and messing up my car cosmetically. The Semi-Truck behind me, though, could not avoid the on-coming car. The driver of the car didn't make it. He was so young, too. This is really messing with me now ( Read more... )

I had a miserable dream last night . . . well, nightmare. It was so vivid and lucid and scary at how real it felt. It got me thinking and I have been feeling anxious. I really wonder what the outcome would be if this actually happened to me and the select people in this nightmare ( Read more... )

Not the movie. Me.

Alone on New Years. That's how cool I am. Nobody invites me to anything.

Soul = Crushed
Heart = Nearly Irreparable
Faith = Diminishing
Love = Slipping
Hate = Rapidly Growing
Sorrow = Overwhelming
Happiness = False

Feeling: More Alone Than Ever

It's getting to me ( Read more... )

I just read a few entries on Epic's forum. LOL, I'm loving how all these people are crying and over-exaggerating about how the Shotgun has been balanced out. They're whining about how the Lancer is over powered and the GNASHER (if you're going to fucking whine and cry about your favorite noob-assed weapon, at least call it by name) isn't as ( Read more... )

This is gonna put the Secret Service to a real test. I'd hate to be one of those guys for these next four years. You just know that there's gonna be people gunning for Obama's head. I once saw a Discovery Channel special on the Secret Service, and they were impressive back then, but now. Man, they're gonna have their hands full keeping this ( Read more... )