Apparently we now have a working router. That makes our lives 654787 times better. They have no reason to be on my computer anymore! No wonder I got signed off earlier! My sleeping habits suck. And i'm hungry for no good reason in the middle of the night. I got not a single useful thing done today. I am sucking at life. Well, I shave my legs ( Read more... )

I am not sure if I like this "S2" style customization stuff on el jay. I did change stuff around, even my user info nonsense. I actually made it to Mayfair today as well! I have so much to do for them!! Holy shit. Today needs to be a drill writing day at least. I desperately want to take a long, hot shower and it is impossible to accomplish ( Read more... )

my legs are failing me, again. i'm so mad i could cry. but the prescription medicine take away all ability to feel. i hate this. i hate myself for letting it happen again. i hate myself for letting other people down. i cant fucking do anything either. i cant feel it anymore, but i cant do the things i try to, like walk ( Read more... )

( These last few days have been perfect. )

If say, I'm gone and you use my computer, dont FUCK IT UP. kthankz.

The 805 is treating me well. It is treating Matt well. It has been exactly what I wanted and what I needed. I've seen with my own eyes that my fears are irrational, and that in 32 days, everything will be fine. Matt's running around the house chasing my dog. She absolutely loves him. So do I. Michelle is a famous tv star now, drumming on a ( Read more... )

I'm heading home tonight. It really is where I need to be right now. I have many obligations, but at this moment, my duties towards my family, real or imagined, take the highest priority. So I'm off for a bit. I get two days with my mom, with my family. And I get time with Matt. I'm glad he will be there ( Read more... )

I woke up early, complained a bit. then called my mom, told her i was thinking about her. I plan on calling her again soon. I want to stop by her office when I'm in town and deliver some chocolates and flowers. She'd love the chocolates. I love her. I wish our router worked. Any of them. Its time for french toast, and i need to find The ( Read more... )

why the fuck did I wake up, completely on my own, at 6:25 AM!?!?!?!?! I don't even have to go to mayfair this morning! the sun's not even out! ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow morning my mom starts thirty five consecutive days of chemotherapy, with breaks on the weekends, of course. I worry about her almost constantly, I worry that my dad and brother won't help her out at home as much as they could, or as much as they should. I worry that she will be weak, and that she will not be able to conceal it. But my ( Read more... )