So, I've had a pretty decent weekend. Yesterday was the last youth group for the year. Josh and megan weren't there, I guess they were camping. But I had the most awesome light saber fight with some of the guys. I guess fencing really paid off. I totally kicked butt. And I was doing pretty good today. I cried when I realized that Josh was ( Read more... )

Yesterday, I had my meeting with Jim, my youth minister. It was good for me, I'm trying to give josh more space, even though I haven't really talked to him. I also found out more about Josh's parents side of the story, and I think an apology to them is in order. I think they know somethings that we both wish they didn't know ( Read more... )

Dear anybody who happens upon this ( Read more... )

Warning... This is really long, kind or repetitive, and whiny ( Read more... )

I feel like I can't make anything better anymore. Like my head is saying no, but the words keep pooring out anyways. I guess that's what happens when you're a self-rightious bitch. Apparently, I'm more stressed then I realized. I just want to lay down and cry and be held by Josh and have everything be better. But you can't cry, especially not ( Read more... )

Thank you everybody for all the support yesterday. That was the longest day in my life. However, Josh and I talked after school and worked things out. I was kind of hesitant at first, not sure how stable we would be, but I got to hang out a little bit today with Josh between Clark classes and after school and we had a good time. And I also ( Read more... )

So, josh and I broke up. Or are at least taking a break, until he can get things together like, what people say, and his family. Even if Josh and I do get back together, it will be so hard because I'm pretty sure his parents don't like me, Megan hates me,even though I think she feels bad because she took it off her livejournal. Or she just doesn ( Read more... )

So, I haven't updated in a while. Prom was so much fun. Spring fling at River was a lot of fun. And then today happened ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in forever. The only reason I'm doing it now is because I'm procrastinating on homework. So far, spring break hasn't been all that great. I still have to go to Clark everyday. The only benefit is that I get to sleep in. Josh has been busy pretty much the entire spring break. My lack of busyness is distressing and makes me ( Read more... )

Wow, its amazing to have livejournal actually at school. You don't have 100% access stuff though and you have to backtrack a lot, but, its still nice. I haven't really updated in a while. There's not much to say currently, at least, nothing that I would want to put on here ( Read more... )