rootless, unconnected, easily aggitated
and i dont like it

How weird to realize this whole blog skips my summer - my summer was this critical experience in my life. I fell for Gabe as hard as I had for Mike, I cared deeply for three boys, my first shot at a sort of polyamory. I connected to my sister on this crazy-deep level when we realized that we are actually almost identical in our thought process, our ( Read more... )

So, this morning, I looked at my phone and saw a text: "I sent you a video link on facebook." I logged in, and watched.

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And as I watched, I felt this - intense sadness, and desire, and hope welling up from the pit of my stomach and filling me until tears poured down my face ( Read more... )

yes, seriously. I just realized I have twice as much stashed away as I thought.... wha...? ok, time to start planning that bed and breakfast and that child....

I am actually building an empire, without realizing it. So now I realize it, the time has come to stop the frivolous daily tasks, and focus. I can convince others to help, if I stop needing their affirmations and instead affirm them.

so many people, so many astounding people! why get hung up on just one? (Enlightenment)

I am so afraid to admit to myself: I want something not commonly allowed in the culture and society of small-time, small-town America. I went bowling with old high school friends, and they were comparing who has kids and marriage already. Even those forgoing family for jobs are working in low-wage, low-impact jobs. The people I know from college at ( Read more... )

 

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I am fighting for the people who have been lost, estranged, marginalized by the current {broken} society and culture, a culture built on militarism and aggression, elitism and oligarchy. I am fighting my brother's war, and my mother's. I am fighting the idea that fights can be reduced to wars and encapsulated in war mentality. I am fighting ( Read more... )

 [A] I interviewed my grandparents, married for 48 years as of this June (1963). It was a telephone interview due to my schedule and the fact that my grandpa had just returned from major surgery in Vancouver, and therefore unable to travel. It was interesting to find the pain had put him in an incredibly philosophical mood, although he could not ( Read more... )

 I broke up with him so I could focus on school, and now he is hounding me and I cannot focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!