I used to think I had all the answers. I was so sure of who I was and what I was. I knew where I was headed. I knew the direction my life would take. Everything was certain. There were no real adventures and just a lot of seriousness. I realize that I don't have all the answers. I was such a dreadful bore. Then somewhere in 2001 things changed. I ( Read more... )

Sometimes I'm not sure where I stand on anything. I've put such a distance between myself and any lasting relationships, friendships or anything important in my life. I bury myself in my work and my thoughts. There's no escaping it. I like that I'm in demand for something that I think I'm good at and I can't stop the thoughts from coming. I'll be ( Read more... )

I feel like all day long there are random thoughts that go through my head that I want to jot down and I always think, it just won't be important later. So then, I forget about them. I could be thinking of completely wonderful, insightful thoughts and just let them fleet away ( Read more... )

The trip to the Big Apple is on! Yeah! I talked to Timmy and we're going to be staying with him in the Bronx. Monika's coming along. Mark seems excited. Wes is excited. I'm excited. There should be many stories out of that weekend ( Read more... )

Hmm...so big Merry Christmas news. The evil older sister has a special package on the way sometime in June. I don't know how to feel about this. I know she'll be as great of a mother as mine was, which actually isn't all that great. Actually, it's horrible. I want to laugh and point fingers, but I guess I'll probably take the higher road and ( Read more... )

So Merry Christmas and all that jazz. Monika and I opted to stay here and have a quite Christmas which I think I mentioned before. We went to Midnight Mass last night at St. Gabe's. It was so lovely. I had forgotten how much I love Catholic Mass. It was also nice to see such hot men in attendance. Perhaps we'll have to attend the Catholic Church ( Read more... )

That last entry was a little harsh. I suppose I should clarify myself a bit. I have always had that one person in my life that I could count on. The person who I could turn to and tell almost anything to. Over the past several years that person has changed quite a bit from my Grandma to Melissa to Bonnie to Wes to Travis to Sister Whitten and the ( Read more... )

There are sometimes you need a friend and all your friends are completely absent. There are sometimes you need a hug and there is no one there to wrap their arms around you. There are times when you count on people only to be let down ( Read more... )

So now, I'm entirely too amused. Why do guys have to try to be so badass? So, a certain guy has tried really hard to convince me that he is exactly not the way the public and everyone perceives him. It's very possible that he was letting me in to the way he really is; but then again, it is possible that he thought that was what I wanted to hear. ( Read more... )

Is it really your place to say that I'm getting myself into a lot of trouble, or that I have no idea what I'm getting myself into with my little crush? Come on now. I'm a big girl. I'm 24. I have dated all sorts of boys. I can handle myself. Out of anyone I know, I protect myself so much more than others. I can drop a crush or a boy so fast it's ( Read more... )