so my senior year is finally coming to a close...and yet im still numb. im starting to think maybe im not going to feel anything at all when all is said and done. i know for a fact, im walking away from someone i love so much, someone who has given me strength in times i felt no one was there...someone i spent countless weekends with making ( Read more... )

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im starting to lose interest in the letter writing process...Whats this?! becky updating her livejournal?! OH MY! i think too much has happened over the months i have not updated to include in this entry, so ill keep it recent ( Read more... )

if you ever say you missed me then dont say you never lied....So nothing seems to be going right in my life. This week has been a pretty crappy week, and its still not over. Im hoping for so much more than what others can give me. Even though ive cut my dependency list down to a mere few, its still one too many. My relationship with emilio still ( Read more... )

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and tonite...i felt infiniteThis week has been such a good week. Emilio and i spent alot of time together and did alot of things we've never done before. Today i woke up in a great mood and absolutely happy with everything. I put on the mixtape emilio made me and it makes me laugh at how well he planned it, ( Read more... )

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I feel absolutely beautiful. I am truly lucky, and my eyes are now open to things that were right in front of me...i never seemed to notice. i have more in my life than i could ever ask for. ..This weekend has had ups and a few slight downs, but i think being a drunken fool has its benefits sometimes ( Read more... )

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Almost losing  someone extremely important and special makes you appreciate so many little things a million times more. Stepping outside of your life and realizing the big picture, realizing your faults and flaws, your strengths and weaknesses and ambitions is something that has been long overdue for me. ( Read more... )

i think love was made for me....

Last night was one of the most amazing nights of my life. Simplicity seems to always satisfy me more than big things.

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I dont think i can recall a time that my heart has hurt the way it does now. I feel like everything is so overwhelming and everyone is annoying me and i am sadden at the thought im not going to be spending nearly enough time with emilio anymore. Now that things are changing for us both, i dont know how its going to turn out for us. If we'll be ( Read more... )

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I feel maybe im overdue for a livejournal update...simply for the fact, i think it will make me feel much better to get everything out, so i can walk away from it. So quite a bit has happened since my last update, cuz i cant even remember what it was about. So senior year has started, and all my fears and ( Read more... )