I Got The Gay-est Looking One
Gah! I've been so good at being happy and not letting myself be emotional, that i'd forgotten how easy it is to get down on yourself. One tiny thing leads to another and another and you can just get downright depressed for nothing. I can still control it though. I'm hardly even unhappy now... i just remembered how easy it is to be unhappy if you let yourself be. And... i'm sure there's going to be times [again], when it won't be so easy to control.
We had the worst practice thingy that i've ever done just now. Ha. It was TERRIBLE. Like, a complete waste of a few hours or an hour or however long it was.
I was really, really excitied, because i had practiced quite a bit and really, actually, got a lot better. I was really excited to actually be able to do something and drum at a not embarassing level for once. But during our playing i didn't really drum at all.
Well, it was kind of late already... and it was at my house so i had to set up the drums in the living room thing, downstairs. So, it was kind of weird that my parents could hear and stuff. Then, Charlie came with Ali, to play bass.
So, first the li'l head thing of my bass drum flung off. Easy to put back on, but i had no clue where my drum key was. So i looked and couldn't find it. We even tried pliers and stuff. Then i just kept looking for my drum key because i remembered picking it up out of my bathroom and putting it somewhere 'safe' because i was thinking that i best not lose it because i only have one... and i just let it float around my house. But i COULD NOT find it and i just kept looking EVERYWHERE. And, yeah, i just seemed really stupid... or... something. I was like 'oh! I know where it was!' and... then i didn't. Then, i tried to explain what it looked like to Charlie... and came up with something crazy and that was kind of humorous slash annoying of me. Then Charlie's like 'Well, where did you tune your drums at?' and i was like 'Oh Yeah!' and then ran and found it right there in that room. So i just seemed... really stupid. But, okay, i had already looked in there... and just knew that it had to be in there because that was the last time that i had used it so... okay, yeah, that defense didn't work at all, did it?
So, yeah, we get that on then just spend the rest of the time like tuning their guitars and stuff. And, like, Ali had just changed the song that we were going to play so... kind of didn't know what she was doing with it. Which, you know, was fine, i expected that... but, yeah, we didn't get anything done on it. Then Charlie was tuned diffrent and then didn't know really how to use the tuning that Ali was in or something. I don't know.
Then we kind of almost started to sort of play it, but the only drumming that Ali wanted in the song slash sounded good in the song was just one hit on the cymbal every measure or so. And, yeah, we used the high hat because the only other cymbal i have is that terrible sounding crash that... sounded terrible. And, so, yeah.
Basicly, we just got nothing done on the song. The drums drowned out all the guitar playing and... ha, nobody liked the drums at all, so we couldn't really even try to put them in the song besides those few cybal sounds.
And... Gah... yeah... it just sucked.
I guess if i want to play music slash drum, i'll need to find someone more compatible to play with than Ali [which, i'll never find...] But, her skill level is quite a bit above mine and maybe that intimidates me or something. No, i don't think it really does, but i still don't want to just make the songs sound worse with my drums. And i honestly have no clue what kind of drumming i'm supposed to put to that type of music. And it's hard to hear what's good and not because, i guess, you only ever hear the music with really clean, clear, studio tweaked-up-to-the-max-core drumming.
And... yeah... that'd suck. I'd probably just end up, like, more or less not drumming... or at least never drumming with anyone, if i don't drum with Ali because, i don't know, i just can't imagine finding someone.
Tragic, Tragic, i know. It's like romeo and Juliet. But, instead of love, it's making music. And instead of names, its differing genres. Terribly tragic.
But, yeah, so, uhm, that was really sad.
I mean, i guess it was fun because we laughed a lot and Ali and charlie were really funny and we even Jammed with my brother on Flaming Ice cube...
But i just looked like a not-so-good musician, a terrible drummer, and kind of lacking in the intelligence area as well. Blah.
Any semi-okay power chord strummin' guitar players with a strong rock/punk background who might enjoy jamming with a new-ish drummer who doesn't know what she's doing but loves it and has some equiptment limitations, in the Kalispell/Flathead valley area? I didn't think so.
On a lighter note, heh, Schools been just fucking dandy. Well, on a lighter note as well, FIRST, my drumming has actually been going dandy too. I just... got quite a bit better lately and started practicing again and the practicing actually improving my skills, *gasp.* I know, i know. I actually tried new stuff instead of just practicing what i can already do flawlessly.
But, school. God, yeah, it's great. I mean, it makes the day go by really slow... but it's... really great.
Contemporary issues is turning out to be semi-lame, but not terrible and, hopefully, i can still learn a lot of stuff that i really want to learn but am just too lazy to actually watch the news and learn. And Spencer and Sean keep me sane in there. So, yeah, i'll be okay.
I must say, i felt very ignorant,stupid, and uneducated in out little 'state of the world' pretest today. Heh. Damn Spencer and Sean and Aaron and their superior knowledges!
Sci-Fi is still awesome. I love our teacher and i love science fiction and literature and movies, and i love the way he presents the class. Lovely.
I think i'll be an aid for mr. Guthrie for third period. Maybe we could even have some interesting conversations again or something. I like him a lot more at the beginning of this year, than i did at the end of last. I think Spence biased me, proving once again that the kid has/had too much influence over me. Then again, everybody does. I just saw him more often then most people. Besides, like, Laura... and i guess she's just not the type to puch opinions and stuff onto me.
Nevermind, i take that back. She probably has just as much influence over me. She made me not buy coffee from chains so much and stuff like this. Yeah, basicly, i'm just a very easily influenced person. I wouldn't go so far as to say conformist, though.
Lunch is kind of crappy. Me and Ellen just float around and talk to people and... yeha. I miss having a solid base table (or two or three) that i can go to when ever i... feel like it.
Oh my god. I can't even explain and put into words how much i love Ben and Mason and Spencer and Ellen and just our Goverment class. God It's just SO much fun being with them and we just laugh and laugh at the dumbest things and... yeah.
Like, Ellen had some Milk Duds and was giving them to people and she gave Ben some and he looks at it and just said something totally stupid like 'god, you gave me the gay looking one!' or 'i got the gayest looking one' or something like that. Spence just kind of wrinkled his eyebrows or whatever and made fun of it by repeating sarcasticly or something. "Yeah, that candy just looks gay." And Mason jsut burst out laughing and... yeah... it wasn't that funny but it was like the funniest thing in the world and... stuff... and okay, that was my funny/not funny anticdote (no, what are those things called?) and the moral of the story is that i love those guys. Or the moral of the story is that i don't know what the moral of the story was going to be and i've started to kind of ramble.
And Advanced Tech is lovely so far as well. I've realized that i'm actually pretty good with photoshop. I think my skills compare to even those of the real computer nerds'. And, i'm certainly better than Kayla and Charlie. That's cool. Ha ha. But, yeah, i still don't know what i'll actually do in that class. Gah. I wanna do like scripting or programming of some sort or another... but how'm i gonna learn that?
My other options are right now to just sit there and be rather unproductive in photoshop or flash or try one of the 3d modeling things. But i really have NO interest in 3d modeling. I mean, how'm i ever going to do something with that, unless i become a.... 3d modeler. Heh.
Then again, how would i ever do something with Flash. Unless i make some entertaining flash movie i could show people, or a really cool flash intro for a website or something... but that's doubtful. Mmmhmm.
I need something i can learn through tutorials.
So, i'm going to get REALLY good grades this year... and go to college... somewhere nice... for something i can find a job in, get paid a substancial amount in, be happy in, be good at and... you know... all that good stuff. Think i can do it? I have NO real interests to go on right now but... I'll find something. How do people pay for college again? Loans? Oh shit. Maybe i'll just marry rich like my first plan. I really don't want to marry though...
Ah. I don't want to be a senior. I'm too confused about college.
I guess i could go the other way and get really BAD grades so i could stall and have another year of highschool...
Well, it wasn't as long as i thought it could be. But still quite lengthy and rambly. Mostly i'm just too lazy to actually write in my notebook journal thing. Typing is so much faster.
On Edward Furlong, in case you were wondering -
Factoids:
Active in People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals (PETA)
Released a pop album in Japan that was popular with teen girls
Significant Other(s):
Paris Hilton, hotel heiress; reportedly dated summer 2000
Natasha Lyonne, actress; met while filming Detroit Rock City (1999); together from 1998-2000
Jacqueline Domac, Edward's former tutor and then manager; Edward moved in with her when he was 16 and she was 29; together from 1993-1998; filed a lawsuit asking for 15 percent of Edward's earnings for 3 years
I'm afriad of peta. They love some strange things in Japan and... god, Edward Furlong is crazy and... stuff. He'd be a mall slippy if he wasn't a rad to the m/c actor. Kinda like the kids with the juvinile deliquiant van would be cool if they were charlie's friends, but they just suck 'cause they're just some sophomores.
Anyways, i still love Edward Furlong. Ha. The actor, not the song.
He just needs to learn to stay away from those bitches and jsut stick with whores... or mabye that's what he HAS learned, being with Paris and all...
We had the worst practice thingy that i've ever done just now. Ha. It was TERRIBLE. Like, a complete waste of a few hours or an hour or however long it was.
I was really, really excitied, because i had practiced quite a bit and really, actually, got a lot better. I was really excited to actually be able to do something and drum at a not embarassing level for once. But during our playing i didn't really drum at all.
Well, it was kind of late already... and it was at my house so i had to set up the drums in the living room thing, downstairs. So, it was kind of weird that my parents could hear and stuff. Then, Charlie came with Ali, to play bass.
So, first the li'l head thing of my bass drum flung off. Easy to put back on, but i had no clue where my drum key was. So i looked and couldn't find it. We even tried pliers and stuff. Then i just kept looking for my drum key because i remembered picking it up out of my bathroom and putting it somewhere 'safe' because i was thinking that i best not lose it because i only have one... and i just let it float around my house. But i COULD NOT find it and i just kept looking EVERYWHERE. And, yeah, i just seemed really stupid... or... something. I was like 'oh! I know where it was!' and... then i didn't. Then, i tried to explain what it looked like to Charlie... and came up with something crazy and that was kind of humorous slash annoying of me. Then Charlie's like 'Well, where did you tune your drums at?' and i was like 'Oh Yeah!' and then ran and found it right there in that room. So i just seemed... really stupid. But, okay, i had already looked in there... and just knew that it had to be in there because that was the last time that i had used it so... okay, yeah, that defense didn't work at all, did it?
So, yeah, we get that on then just spend the rest of the time like tuning their guitars and stuff. And, like, Ali had just changed the song that we were going to play so... kind of didn't know what she was doing with it. Which, you know, was fine, i expected that... but, yeah, we didn't get anything done on it. Then Charlie was tuned diffrent and then didn't know really how to use the tuning that Ali was in or something. I don't know.
Then we kind of almost started to sort of play it, but the only drumming that Ali wanted in the song slash sounded good in the song was just one hit on the cymbal every measure or so. And, yeah, we used the high hat because the only other cymbal i have is that terrible sounding crash that... sounded terrible. And, so, yeah.
Basicly, we just got nothing done on the song. The drums drowned out all the guitar playing and... ha, nobody liked the drums at all, so we couldn't really even try to put them in the song besides those few cybal sounds.
And... Gah... yeah... it just sucked.
I guess if i want to play music slash drum, i'll need to find someone more compatible to play with than Ali [which, i'll never find...] But, her skill level is quite a bit above mine and maybe that intimidates me or something. No, i don't think it really does, but i still don't want to just make the songs sound worse with my drums. And i honestly have no clue what kind of drumming i'm supposed to put to that type of music. And it's hard to hear what's good and not because, i guess, you only ever hear the music with really clean, clear, studio tweaked-up-to-the-max-core drumming.
And... yeah... that'd suck. I'd probably just end up, like, more or less not drumming... or at least never drumming with anyone, if i don't drum with Ali because, i don't know, i just can't imagine finding someone.
Tragic, Tragic, i know. It's like romeo and Juliet. But, instead of love, it's making music. And instead of names, its differing genres. Terribly tragic.
But, yeah, so, uhm, that was really sad.
I mean, i guess it was fun because we laughed a lot and Ali and charlie were really funny and we even Jammed with my brother on Flaming Ice cube...
But i just looked like a not-so-good musician, a terrible drummer, and kind of lacking in the intelligence area as well. Blah.
Any semi-okay power chord strummin' guitar players with a strong rock/punk background who might enjoy jamming with a new-ish drummer who doesn't know what she's doing but loves it and has some equiptment limitations, in the Kalispell/Flathead valley area? I didn't think so.
On a lighter note, heh, Schools been just fucking dandy. Well, on a lighter note as well, FIRST, my drumming has actually been going dandy too. I just... got quite a bit better lately and started practicing again and the practicing actually improving my skills, *gasp.* I know, i know. I actually tried new stuff instead of just practicing what i can already do flawlessly.
But, school. God, yeah, it's great. I mean, it makes the day go by really slow... but it's... really great.
Contemporary issues is turning out to be semi-lame, but not terrible and, hopefully, i can still learn a lot of stuff that i really want to learn but am just too lazy to actually watch the news and learn. And Spencer and Sean keep me sane in there. So, yeah, i'll be okay.
I must say, i felt very ignorant,stupid, and uneducated in out little 'state of the world' pretest today. Heh. Damn Spencer and Sean and Aaron and their superior knowledges!
Sci-Fi is still awesome. I love our teacher and i love science fiction and literature and movies, and i love the way he presents the class. Lovely.
I think i'll be an aid for mr. Guthrie for third period. Maybe we could even have some interesting conversations again or something. I like him a lot more at the beginning of this year, than i did at the end of last. I think Spence biased me, proving once again that the kid has/had too much influence over me. Then again, everybody does. I just saw him more often then most people. Besides, like, Laura... and i guess she's just not the type to puch opinions and stuff onto me.
Nevermind, i take that back. She probably has just as much influence over me. She made me not buy coffee from chains so much and stuff like this. Yeah, basicly, i'm just a very easily influenced person. I wouldn't go so far as to say conformist, though.
Lunch is kind of crappy. Me and Ellen just float around and talk to people and... yeha. I miss having a solid base table (or two or three) that i can go to when ever i... feel like it.
Oh my god. I can't even explain and put into words how much i love Ben and Mason and Spencer and Ellen and just our Goverment class. God It's just SO much fun being with them and we just laugh and laugh at the dumbest things and... yeah.
Like, Ellen had some Milk Duds and was giving them to people and she gave Ben some and he looks at it and just said something totally stupid like 'god, you gave me the gay looking one!' or 'i got the gayest looking one' or something like that. Spence just kind of wrinkled his eyebrows or whatever and made fun of it by repeating sarcasticly or something. "Yeah, that candy just looks gay." And Mason jsut burst out laughing and... yeah... it wasn't that funny but it was like the funniest thing in the world and... stuff... and okay, that was my funny/not funny anticdote (no, what are those things called?) and the moral of the story is that i love those guys. Or the moral of the story is that i don't know what the moral of the story was going to be and i've started to kind of ramble.
And Advanced Tech is lovely so far as well. I've realized that i'm actually pretty good with photoshop. I think my skills compare to even those of the real computer nerds'. And, i'm certainly better than Kayla and Charlie. That's cool. Ha ha. But, yeah, i still don't know what i'll actually do in that class. Gah. I wanna do like scripting or programming of some sort or another... but how'm i gonna learn that?
My other options are right now to just sit there and be rather unproductive in photoshop or flash or try one of the 3d modeling things. But i really have NO interest in 3d modeling. I mean, how'm i ever going to do something with that, unless i become a.... 3d modeler. Heh.
Then again, how would i ever do something with Flash. Unless i make some entertaining flash movie i could show people, or a really cool flash intro for a website or something... but that's doubtful. Mmmhmm.
I need something i can learn through tutorials.
So, i'm going to get REALLY good grades this year... and go to college... somewhere nice... for something i can find a job in, get paid a substancial amount in, be happy in, be good at and... you know... all that good stuff. Think i can do it? I have NO real interests to go on right now but... I'll find something. How do people pay for college again? Loans? Oh shit. Maybe i'll just marry rich like my first plan. I really don't want to marry though...
Ah. I don't want to be a senior. I'm too confused about college.
I guess i could go the other way and get really BAD grades so i could stall and have another year of highschool...
Well, it wasn't as long as i thought it could be. But still quite lengthy and rambly. Mostly i'm just too lazy to actually write in my notebook journal thing. Typing is so much faster.
On Edward Furlong, in case you were wondering -
Factoids:
Active in People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals (PETA)
Released a pop album in Japan that was popular with teen girls
Significant Other(s):
Paris Hilton, hotel heiress; reportedly dated summer 2000
Natasha Lyonne, actress; met while filming Detroit Rock City (1999); together from 1998-2000
Jacqueline Domac, Edward's former tutor and then manager; Edward moved in with her when he was 16 and she was 29; together from 1993-1998; filed a lawsuit asking for 15 percent of Edward's earnings for 3 years
I'm afriad of peta. They love some strange things in Japan and... god, Edward Furlong is crazy and... stuff. He'd be a mall slippy if he wasn't a rad to the m/c actor. Kinda like the kids with the juvinile deliquiant van would be cool if they were charlie's friends, but they just suck 'cause they're just some sophomores.
Anyways, i still love Edward Furlong. Ha. The actor, not the song.
He just needs to learn to stay away from those bitches and jsut stick with whores... or mabye that's what he HAS learned, being with Paris and all...