wow.  its pretty much been forever ( Read more... )

alright. its been a busy fun intense awesome crazy fantastic exhausting amazing month. 
so many things and people have changed. 
maybe nothing will ever be quite the same, but its going to be a fucking awesome summer.

aps are finally over. and we all survived. 
now its just waiting to get the scores back. 
eric's show was awesome. 
there have been some ( Read more... )

alright. so its been a pretty interesting time. 
prom was fucking awesome. 
king of thebes were the words of the night.
spring break college trip was fun.  colleges colleges colleges. but running into people was fun. 
yes we did it. twelve colleges in ten days. we're pros.
i'm going to miss not going to camp. it still hasnt hit me that i'm not going ( Read more... )

well lets see. its been an interesting past few weeks. 
and i'm looking forward to my five day weekend more than anything!
but everything is looking up. 
especially if this headache would go away...but i have faith.
and the weather has been bi-polar per usual.
my english essay isnt very satrical, but who cares?!
bio is the highlight of my day each and ( Read more... )

And I've become content with this life that I lead,
Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything,
And I lie to myself,
And say it's for the best,
We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come.
--straylight run

i need a hug.

alright. so its been a pretty good last few weeks. 
eleanor's party was awesome. :)
and i'm really liking the new format for updating here. 
i cant wait for the starting line show. oh wow. 
and i love my friends. they're freaking amazing.
everything else will resolve itself one way or another. i know what i want, but whatev.
gotta make some decisions ( Read more... )

what is wrong with me?

so i was reading the perks of being a wallflower again. god i love that book. it just has so many good quotes in it. wow. one of them that i read and now i cant get out of my head is "people take the love they think they deserve" or something along those lines.i just can't stop thinking about it and how true it really is. and the poem in the book? ( Read more... )

i cant do this anymore.

i miss him too much.
all the time. i dont know what to do. but i cant keep doing this. its not working.

why?

how could you do this? how could you plan it out days in advance? how could you still make plans with me that day, and make promises you knew you wouldn't keep?

i dont fucking know.

all i know is that i still want you as part of my life, even just as distant friends. and yet that probably wont happen.