Love is just an excuse to get hurt...

Sep 21, 2005 12:54

They said it was never easy.
But they never said it hurt this much.

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leftcoastpunker September 21 2005, 17:15:03 UTC
one thing i've learned that helps a lot is communication. if rex and i don't talk it through, we know we won't make it. also, i remind him quite often that it's a two-way street. and we have to meet eachother half way. (example: i wanted a tattoo, he said he didn't like the idea, i said okay and didn't do it. he wanted to drink, i told him that i didn't want him to, he said okay and didn't do it anymore.) guys always try to pin it on us; afterall, we are the "complicated" ones, right?! lol just hang in there girl...it will all work itself out.

luv you!!!

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colorxmexorange September 21 2005, 19:04:44 UTC
It's not that, I mean, everythings okay between us. I just hate how I didn't talk to him yesterday. It kind of killed me. I don't know. It's pretty stupid that I am upset over that but, you know, sometimes I feel like I need him more than he needs me.
I know he has a life other than me, but I want to be part of it.
Like, the way I see it, don't call = don't care.
I wouldn't even care if it was a quick 5 minute call, it would still show me that he is thinking about me.

I don't know, Maybe I'm stupid. I know he loves me, sometimes I just wish he wasn't so busy. And I wish I wasn't so busy. I miss him.
And I feel like I'm losing him, slowly. And I'm dying inside everytime I think about it.

And atleast Rex listens to you. =]

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leftcoastpunker September 21 2005, 19:37:58 UTC
i know how that feels. when rex doesn't call me, i feel as though he doesn't care. or sometimes i just start to worry a lot...thoughts go through my head like "did he get hurt?", "did he die?", "does he not care or is he mad at me?"...those kind of things. but yeah, i know where you're coming from. and believe me, he doesn't ALWAYS listen to me. lol

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colorxmexorange September 21 2005, 19:39:32 UTC
THANK YOU!

Finally, I know I'm not alone. Seems like no one else feels the same way as me. THANK GOD ONE PERSON DOES.

I looovvveee you.

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chescoman September 21 2005, 20:43:54 UTC
I'm sorry I didn't get to talk to you yesterday, I was bummed too. I had a pretty cramped day. And I got home to get on the computer, but no, I couldn't get on, my dad made me go to bed because I was on until 12:30 Monday night. Not to mention the fact that I've got 7 essays for Euro due next Friday, and it's draining me.
Of course you are part of my life, the biggest part in fact, but just because I don't have the chance to call you one day doesn't mean I don't care. Of course I do, I need you way more than you need me.

But it's supposed to get better in October, right? I sure as hell hope so.
And you're not losing me...if anything, I feel like I'm losing you.

And wtf, I listen to you.

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colorxmexorange September 21 2005, 21:29:56 UTC
I know you were busy, and I completly understand that. And I didn't want a big deal out of it. I just miss you.
And I know I am part of your life, just sometimes, I need to know. Ya know?
And I think it's the other way around, I need you more.

I hope it does. Or I'll die.
No you're not. If you were losing me, I would have been gone along time ago. It's just latly, I feel like you're not really there. Like...I don't know. Maybe it's stupid, but I saw something in you change, I know what it is but I am trying to ignore it because I don't want it in you.

I know you do, I didn't say you didn't....I was just saying Rex listens to Kelly, Rex is 16 and Kelly is 24.

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chescoman September 21 2005, 22:34:11 UTC
I miss you too.
I try to tell you everytime I talk to you...but I guess I don't.
No, trust me, I need you more.

I dunno...I don't understand what you mean...I'm here, I've been here for the past 3 months and 9 days...I haven't changed, other than my GPA has dropped. I don't understand what you're saying.

Whoa....

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colorxmexorange September 21 2005, 22:36:30 UTC
I know.

But you've changed this past month and 9 days. Trust me.

Yeah.

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