Fuck everything I said in the last post. I'm a weak dumbass. I always think when everything is going to be okay. It screws up. The one good thing in my life is dying on me.

I'M A FUCKED UP MESS.
I'M SUCH A FUCK UP.
I DON'T DESERVE ANYONE IN MY LIFE AT ALL.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

"Away From Me" by EvanescenceI hold my breath as this life starts to ( Read more... )

I love this song.

"I Thought I Knew It All" -- By Megadeth ( Read more... )

So I went and saw The Exorcism of Emily Rose. The movie was okay, I liked it better than any other scary movie I've seen. But I had a great time. Only because I was with Jason. And Jackie was happy, I could tell. So that put me in a good mood ( Read more... )

I'm getting mixed feelings about stuff and people.
I don't know....
It's all changed and I don't know if I want to stay in it.
But I don't know if I want it to be over.

I don't know.

I'm starting to really hate guys.

That's all.

You expect me to apologize
for things that you've done wrong.
While you're inciting others.
You're owning up to nothing
and I wish that I was gone,
because you're not going anywhere.

Brittani: Tammy, you have this happy bubble around you. And when you are around people, the happy bubble expands and makes everyone happy. You make EVERYONE so happy.
Tammy: You make me sound so gay.
Brittani: But happy.
Tammy: Gayness.
Brittai: Makes me sound like a tree hugger lesbo.
Tammy: with a happy bubble.
Brittani: HAPPY BUBBLE-NESS.
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Nothing really to update you with. I slept all day.

So I leave you with this.


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So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...