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[colouredvinyl]

So I realize that not very many people on my "LJ friends list" actually use LiveJournal anymore, but I've been (perhaps unwisely) scrolling through past entries both of my own and other people's, and stumbled across something I thought might prove interesting at some point in the future (though more than likely I will probably find myself looking

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[v_as_in_volpe]

Come to Savannah for St. Patties and party. Drink and be merry!

[colouredvinyl]

Aw, having just gone on one big road trip, I'm kind of in the poor house right now. But, it also got me feeling more revved up about taking such excursions. So, soon as I get the old bank account built up a little more comfortably, Savannah's in my sights.

[anonymous]

it doesn't count as anonymous if you have ip logging turned on. ;)

but to humor the intent...

i'm always afraid that i have made too many wrong choices to ever be able to end up happy. i'm constantly waiting for it all to come crashing down around my ears. i expect to pay for my mistakes, with interest. i wonder if i haven't condemned myself to a half-life. i keep myself going by pretending nothing is wrong, and by saying everything is okay when in fact very little is okay- i just don't want to have to try to explain it. i feel like parts of me are slowly dying, and keep looking for the day when i reach a breaking point and take definitive action, but i am a coward.

[colouredvinyl]

Oh my, I totally forgot about IP logging. Well, I've turned it off, now, so there will be no more of that.

Anyway, you sound like someone I'd be interested in talking to. I'm guessing that you've just randomly stumbled upon my livejournal, because you really don't sound like any of the people on my friends' list (or maybe this is just optimism on my part; hoping none of my friends feel the way you describe). Unfortunately, I think what you've described is all too common in the human experience (and I've felt a good deal of the same things myself). :( I wish I could offer some sage advice, but in lieu of being able to adequately do so, I'll just give you my best wishes and an offer to talk some more if you ever so desire. My AIM screen name and e-mail address are both listed on my LJ profile.