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THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY
(Lets see if you can get through it. If not, then you're too scared about your past.)
-Longest relationship:
3 and a half years
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they loved you?
Just two.
-How many of them meant it when they said they loved you?
One.
-Have you ever thought you were going to marry the person you were with?
Yes, but it never pans out the way you plan.
-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
You don't know the half of it.
-Have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Unfortunately, yes. Because I'm a bad person.
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I'm actually pretty happy either way. I like having someone to lean on, though, whether it be romantically or platonically.
-Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes, in a 'not technically' kind of way.
-Have you ever had your heart broken?
More than once.
-Have you ever broken someone's heart?
One on purpose, twice on accident.
-Talk to any of your ex's?
Not really. Every once in a while we'll check in to make sure the other isn't dead or pregnant. You know.
-Think any of your ex's still feel the same way they did about you when you were dating?
Not really. I really burned that bridge with every combustible I had.
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
No. I'm a terrible girlfriend. I actually have no idea why boys put up with my craziness.
Ever dated someone that wasn't good to you?
What girl hasn't? I seem to be especially unlucky at finding boys with bad timing.
-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Not a romantically abusive relationship, but yes.
-Have you dated someone older than you?
Yes, he was almost two years my senior.
-Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yes. Most of my relationships are full of "I'm sorry"s and "if only"s. I try not to think about them.
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on the circumstances.
-Believe in love at first sight?
No. I believe in chemistry, though.
-Ever dated two people at once?
Never.
-Ever been given an engagement ring?
Once, almost, as a joke, but never for real.
-Do you have something to say to any of your ex's?
I'm sorry I was so horrible. You deserve better anyways.
-Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
Never wanted to.
-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend?
Not really.
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
Worse, sometimes.
LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Emilee Petersmark
Birth Date: 7/17/87
Current Location: Allendale
Hair Color: brownish/blackish
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: Being unhappy forever
Your dream of the perfect date: Something simple. A rented movie and popcorn, or breaking into an abandoned building. Or something.
Goal you'd like to achieve: Be hired someplace where I wouldn't have to clean toilets.
Your best friend(s): Meghan-face, and Tree (of course). Plus, Lauren, because... y'know. She's around :)
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: GOD CAT STOP GNAWING ON MY FAAACE.
Your best physical feature: My... Asianness?.
Your bed time: Late.
Your most missed memory: Root Beer Chaser, hands down.
LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's, definitely
Single or Group Date: Group, actually
NIke or Adidas: Nike
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither.
LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Not in a few years.
Cuss: Like a motherfucking sailor.
Take showers: Everyday.
Have a crush: Not really.
Like(d) school: Sure. College was great.
Believe in yourself: As much as I can.
Believe what goes around comes around: Definitely. Justice rocks.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Not really.
Think you're a health freak: Not even remotely. If it wasn't for Emo Kid constantly coaching me (read: lecturing me) I'd probably weigh 400 lbs.
LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yes, but only because the Secretary of State was there.
Been on stage: Yes (I love music, and my guitar).
Eaten sushi: Boo, no.
Been hurt: I have a cat. I'm covered in scratches.
Dyed your hair: No, it's not professional (sadface).
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: Yes, but only with a room full of girls, which is less fun.
Kissed the same sex: No.
Got beaten up: Yes.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes. I'm a chameleon in that respect.
LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you're hoping to be married by: 30 seems like a safe number.
Number of kids you're planning on having: None. If any, I"ll adopt.
LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Blue.
Best hair color: Dark.
Short or long hair: Long, please!
Fat or fit: Eh, not too picky on this.
Looks or personality: Both, please?
Fun or serious: Fun!
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: Listening to "The Ultimate Showdown"
1 HOUR AGO: Bike riding.
1 WEEK AGO: Working.
1 YEAR AGO: School.
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: blahhhh.
I HATE: where I am in my life right now.
I HIDE: just how messed up I really am to get by socially.
I NEED: a better job.
I LOVE: my car.
What is a food that you'd hate to be allergic to?
Pizza. Seriously, you'd be the saddest kid at every single birthday party ever.
Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you?
The same height would be nice, but I doubt I could find a guy shorter than me.
When was the last time your nose bled?
Never.
How old are you turning this year?
22... God I'm too old for LiveJournal.
What is your favorite thing to snack on while watching a movie?
Popcorn is the only way to go.
Swimming pool or hot tub?
Swimming pool. Hot tubs are amazing but only for a few minutes-- I always get uncomfortable.
Can you swim well?
I can swim well enough to stay afloat. I won't win any races, though.
What body part do you wash first in the shower?
Hair.
Who would you allow to read your thoughts for one day?
My cat. Maybe then she'd realize just how close she comes to getting punted EVERY SINGLE DAY.
What kind of first impression do you think you make?
"Wow, she's Asian and she's awkward."
Name your last reason for using a camera?
... Taking... pictures?
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
The floor.
What are you excited about?
Swing dancing tonight! Also, geeky RPing because I am a nerd and love it.
Are you a happy person?
Sort of.
What are you wearing?
Boxers, and a Boyscouts T-shirt (I just woke up).
What do you want?
A desk job!
Did you enjoy your weekend?
It was pretty good, I guess.
Do you regret anything you've done recently?
Get frustrated with Emo Kid for being... well, Emo KId.
Is there anybody you wish you could see?
Tree and Meghan :(
Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with J or M?
Yes. My first kiss was a 'J' name.
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
A bunch, actually. I trust boys more than girls.
Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
Maybe. If I'm still with Emo Kid, probably not.
What makes you the most mad about girls?
DRAMA.
Have you ever been given roses?
Yes.
Do you even like getting flowers?
Depends on the occasion.
What's your favorite flowers?
Sunflowers, or daisies.
Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
Hopefully, considering we signed a 1 year lease and are sharing a room.
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
GOD yes.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Absolutely not.
Can you be your complete self around the person you like?
No. My complete self comes with heaping handfuls of crazy.
Whose the first person you texted today?
I don't text.
Would you move to another state to be with the person you loved?
Yeah. There's really nothing for me here, anyways.
Do you ever get a text saying good morning?
No.
Last movie you watched and who did you watch it with?
'Kibakichi', a bad Japanese film about a samurai werewolf. I watched this monstrosity with Emo Kid, Hat Kid, and Lauren.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Chillaxin'.
How's the weather today?
Sunny with a high of 75.
Where is the person you need most right now?
Probably sitting in an office somewhere distributing pills.
What color are your eyes?
Brown.
Do you like poptarts?
YES.
Where will you be 12 hours from now?
On the dance floor :)
Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
No. I'm tiny.
Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
Probably shorts and a shirt, and underwear.
Where's your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
Work.
Are you on a desktop or laptop?
Laptop. Its name is Tomato.
Does anyone hate you for no reason?
Probably. A lot of people hate me, but generally it's because I'm impossible.
Can you make yourself cry?
Easy.
What are you planning to do today?
Lounge.
Play an instrument?
Two. Three if you count the trumpet.
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No. It's too easy to fuck everything up. Time travel sucks like that.
What are your favorite colors?
Gray, red, and green.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with an R?
No.
Have you ever passed out?
Yes, but always in a bed.
Are you easily confused?
What?
Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
No. Not even remotely.
What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
Mint Chocolate Chip.
Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yes. It's what I do.
Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Today, yes.
What color are your socks?
Not wearing any. Goin' barefoot today.
Where were you at 8am this morning?
Kicking the cat off the bed for mauling my ankles.
Do you fall for people easily?
Not really. I have pretty high standards (sorry boys).
Have you ever dated someone more than once?
Sort of.
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
I don't text.
What is your current crave?
Another doughnut.
Do you find members of the preferred sex confusing?
To some extent.
How has the week been?
Short.
Favorite drink?
Root Beer.
Last person to say 'I love you' to you?
Emo Kid.
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I suppose, if he behaves.
What's your favorite color gummy bear?
Red.
What is the nicest part of the opposite sex's body?
Back! Or arms. Or shoulders. Or...
Have you ever run into a dishwasher?
... no?
Ever had a song sung about/for you?
Yeah, but most of them were EMILEE-I-HATE-YOU songs.
Is there a baby in the room with you right now?
Thank god, no.
Do you know how to dance?
Sort of.
Where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or other?
Shower.
What did your last text message say?
I DON'T TEXT.
What do you smell like?
Morning.
Ever hurt yourself playing Wii?
I don't have one.
Do you have freckles?
Like, 3 random ones.
What's the last thing you watched on TV?
Mythbusters.
What's the last video game you played?
Donkey Kong.
Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
The alphabet, and then some.
Do you wear glasses?
Only in the house.
What can you hear right now?
The wooden wind chime on the porch clackin' away.
Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?
I feel... the same.
What was your favorite childhood show?
Recess. I aspire to be Spinelli.
Do you bite your nails?
Like a fiend.
(Lets see if you can get through it. If not, then you're too scared about your past.)
-Longest relationship:
3 and a half years
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they loved you?
Just two.
-How many of them meant it when they said they loved you?
One.
-Have you ever thought you were going to marry the person you were with?
Yes, but it never pans out the way you plan.
-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
You don't know the half of it.
-Have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Unfortunately, yes. Because I'm a bad person.
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I'm actually pretty happy either way. I like having someone to lean on, though, whether it be romantically or platonically.
-Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes, in a 'not technically' kind of way.
-Have you ever had your heart broken?
More than once.
-Have you ever broken someone's heart?
One on purpose, twice on accident.
-Talk to any of your ex's?
Not really. Every once in a while we'll check in to make sure the other isn't dead or pregnant. You know.
-Think any of your ex's still feel the same way they did about you when you were dating?
Not really. I really burned that bridge with every combustible I had.
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
No. I'm a terrible girlfriend. I actually have no idea why boys put up with my craziness.
Ever dated someone that wasn't good to you?
What girl hasn't? I seem to be especially unlucky at finding boys with bad timing.
-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Not a romantically abusive relationship, but yes.
-Have you dated someone older than you?
Yes, he was almost two years my senior.
-Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yes. Most of my relationships are full of "I'm sorry"s and "if only"s. I try not to think about them.
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on the circumstances.
-Believe in love at first sight?
No. I believe in chemistry, though.
-Ever dated two people at once?
Never.
-Ever been given an engagement ring?
Once, almost, as a joke, but never for real.
-Do you have something to say to any of your ex's?
I'm sorry I was so horrible. You deserve better anyways.
-Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
Never wanted to.
-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend?
Not really.
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
Worse, sometimes.
LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Emilee Petersmark
Birth Date: 7/17/87
Current Location: Allendale
Hair Color: brownish/blackish
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: Being unhappy forever
Your dream of the perfect date: Something simple. A rented movie and popcorn, or breaking into an abandoned building. Or something.
Goal you'd like to achieve: Be hired someplace where I wouldn't have to clean toilets.
Your best friend(s): Meghan-face, and Tree (of course). Plus, Lauren, because... y'know. She's around :)
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: GOD CAT STOP GNAWING ON MY FAAACE.
Your best physical feature: My... Asianness?.
Your bed time: Late.
Your most missed memory: Root Beer Chaser, hands down.
LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's, definitely
Single or Group Date: Group, actually
NIke or Adidas: Nike
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither.
LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Not in a few years.
Cuss: Like a motherfucking sailor.
Take showers: Everyday.
Have a crush: Not really.
Like(d) school: Sure. College was great.
Believe in yourself: As much as I can.
Believe what goes around comes around: Definitely. Justice rocks.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Not really.
Think you're a health freak: Not even remotely. If it wasn't for Emo Kid constantly coaching me (read: lecturing me) I'd probably weigh 400 lbs.
LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yes, but only because the Secretary of State was there.
Been on stage: Yes (I love music, and my guitar).
Eaten sushi: Boo, no.
Been hurt: I have a cat. I'm covered in scratches.
Dyed your hair: No, it's not professional (sadface).
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: Yes, but only with a room full of girls, which is less fun.
Kissed the same sex: No.
Got beaten up: Yes.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes. I'm a chameleon in that respect.
LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you're hoping to be married by: 30 seems like a safe number.
Number of kids you're planning on having: None. If any, I"ll adopt.
LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Blue.
Best hair color: Dark.
Short or long hair: Long, please!
Fat or fit: Eh, not too picky on this.
Looks or personality: Both, please?
Fun or serious: Fun!
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: Listening to "The Ultimate Showdown"
1 HOUR AGO: Bike riding.
1 WEEK AGO: Working.
1 YEAR AGO: School.
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: blahhhh.
I HATE: where I am in my life right now.
I HIDE: just how messed up I really am to get by socially.
I NEED: a better job.
I LOVE: my car.
What is a food that you'd hate to be allergic to?
Pizza. Seriously, you'd be the saddest kid at every single birthday party ever.
Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you?
The same height would be nice, but I doubt I could find a guy shorter than me.
When was the last time your nose bled?
Never.
How old are you turning this year?
22... God I'm too old for LiveJournal.
What is your favorite thing to snack on while watching a movie?
Popcorn is the only way to go.
Swimming pool or hot tub?
Swimming pool. Hot tubs are amazing but only for a few minutes-- I always get uncomfortable.
Can you swim well?
I can swim well enough to stay afloat. I won't win any races, though.
What body part do you wash first in the shower?
Hair.
Who would you allow to read your thoughts for one day?
My cat. Maybe then she'd realize just how close she comes to getting punted EVERY SINGLE DAY.
What kind of first impression do you think you make?
"Wow, she's Asian and she's awkward."
Name your last reason for using a camera?
... Taking... pictures?
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
The floor.
What are you excited about?
Swing dancing tonight! Also, geeky RPing because I am a nerd and love it.
Are you a happy person?
Sort of.
What are you wearing?
Boxers, and a Boyscouts T-shirt (I just woke up).
What do you want?
A desk job!
Did you enjoy your weekend?
It was pretty good, I guess.
Do you regret anything you've done recently?
Get frustrated with Emo Kid for being... well, Emo KId.
Is there anybody you wish you could see?
Tree and Meghan :(
Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with J or M?
Yes. My first kiss was a 'J' name.
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
A bunch, actually. I trust boys more than girls.
Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
Maybe. If I'm still with Emo Kid, probably not.
What makes you the most mad about girls?
DRAMA.
Have you ever been given roses?
Yes.
Do you even like getting flowers?
Depends on the occasion.
What's your favorite flowers?
Sunflowers, or daisies.
Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
Hopefully, considering we signed a 1 year lease and are sharing a room.
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
GOD yes.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Absolutely not.
Can you be your complete self around the person you like?
No. My complete self comes with heaping handfuls of crazy.
Whose the first person you texted today?
I don't text.
Would you move to another state to be with the person you loved?
Yeah. There's really nothing for me here, anyways.
Do you ever get a text saying good morning?
No.
Last movie you watched and who did you watch it with?
'Kibakichi', a bad Japanese film about a samurai werewolf. I watched this monstrosity with Emo Kid, Hat Kid, and Lauren.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Chillaxin'.
How's the weather today?
Sunny with a high of 75.
Where is the person you need most right now?
Probably sitting in an office somewhere distributing pills.
What color are your eyes?
Brown.
Do you like poptarts?
YES.
Where will you be 12 hours from now?
On the dance floor :)
Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
No. I'm tiny.
Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
Probably shorts and a shirt, and underwear.
Where's your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
Work.
Are you on a desktop or laptop?
Laptop. Its name is Tomato.
Does anyone hate you for no reason?
Probably. A lot of people hate me, but generally it's because I'm impossible.
Can you make yourself cry?
Easy.
What are you planning to do today?
Lounge.
Play an instrument?
Two. Three if you count the trumpet.
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No. It's too easy to fuck everything up. Time travel sucks like that.
What are your favorite colors?
Gray, red, and green.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with an R?
No.
Have you ever passed out?
Yes, but always in a bed.
Are you easily confused?
What?
Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
No. Not even remotely.
What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
Mint Chocolate Chip.
Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yes. It's what I do.
Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Today, yes.
What color are your socks?
Not wearing any. Goin' barefoot today.
Where were you at 8am this morning?
Kicking the cat off the bed for mauling my ankles.
Do you fall for people easily?
Not really. I have pretty high standards (sorry boys).
Have you ever dated someone more than once?
Sort of.
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
I don't text.
What is your current crave?
Another doughnut.
Do you find members of the preferred sex confusing?
To some extent.
How has the week been?
Short.
Favorite drink?
Root Beer.
Last person to say 'I love you' to you?
Emo Kid.
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I suppose, if he behaves.
What's your favorite color gummy bear?
Red.
What is the nicest part of the opposite sex's body?
Back! Or arms. Or shoulders. Or...
Have you ever run into a dishwasher?
... no?
Ever had a song sung about/for you?
Yeah, but most of them were EMILEE-I-HATE-YOU songs.
Is there a baby in the room with you right now?
Thank god, no.
Do you know how to dance?
Sort of.
Where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or other?
Shower.
What did your last text message say?
I DON'T TEXT.
What do you smell like?
Morning.
Ever hurt yourself playing Wii?
I don't have one.
Do you have freckles?
Like, 3 random ones.
What's the last thing you watched on TV?
Mythbusters.
What's the last video game you played?
Donkey Kong.
Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
The alphabet, and then some.
Do you wear glasses?
Only in the house.
What can you hear right now?
The wooden wind chime on the porch clackin' away.
Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?
I feel... the same.
What was your favorite childhood show?
Recess. I aspire to be Spinelli.
Do you bite your nails?
Like a fiend.