whats up now i'm still at home its friday night i'll be here all night not unusual so whenever theres no where for me to go at night ( Read more... )

with the way things have been handles and turned out. ohh yea in some ways its awesome. but in others you find yourself with nothing. no one to talk to. no one to see. nobody looks forward to seeing you. rarely it happens. only calls to get are ones late at night when your friends are out havin fun. i like em. theres the occasional call in ( Read more... )

he sits home. it's not outa the norm. maybe its just his doom. its been that way ever since he was born. hes got his friends. but they all got there own. thats where it end. hes got the phone. still don't feel right. all the chance hes had hes lost. start over the very next night. it don't matter the cost. hes gone to college no matter ( Read more... )

this one was different. went over there only knowing my buddy mike his girfriend and her older brother the grad. at 3 sunday it started. somehow the family knew me. little weird but i'm cool with it. there was so much drinkin. not from me tho. his mom counted i had 9 bottles of water. the rest shall be left untold for now. i didn't leave ( Read more... )

its 1 on a sunday mornin. i have no life and nowhere to go. i sit at home. and do nothing. i know college won't be this way. but for another 5 weeks i have to deal with doing nothing all the time. its no fun. but its all i've got. its cool to hear what others are doing. i almost find myself thinkin that woulda been cool to do it to. but i ( Read more... )

But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in.

that caught me stuck with me.

fits so well.

its 6:40.

and i work in the yard at home. i have nothing else to do.

so it is said.

later kids

i don't know why. don't know how. do know when. do know i like. do know that pain feels so good. but hurts in the end all togeather. ups and downs. a hill on every corner. my grass is green but maybe that grass is forest green. and that water is clearer than mine. i want to find out what there is. to make friends with whoever corsses my ( Read more... )

looking, searching, trying to find. what for everything always gets flipped around. even someone who you thought was true says there not and it doesn't bother them. wonder how long thats been. how long i've been blind. meet someone and there turn out to care more then anyone else. they open up. let down there shield. true character. its ( Read more... )

since last, nothing has changed, i've done nothin with anyone, cept myself. so when that happens i resort to some unhealthy things such as cigars there o so good but not in the same concept. or i work out but one can only workout so much in a given day. then when night falls i sit here staring at the screen watin for someone to say somethin to ( Read more... )

these past days have been crazy. startin wednesday: worked all day people over slept 4 hours then went to work thursday: fireworks that night and big boy and amandas house till 3 am friday: at work at 630 work till 315 then moved 6000 pounds of dirt till 630 went to stoneys fireworks suck got outa there at 12:30. went to rochesterfell asleep ( Read more... )