Sniff. Oops.

[comeshootwithme]

Don't get me wrong, I'm really, really very happy about my BA result. But just now, I did have a bit of a cry because  my mother is not here to share my joy.

*sniff*

I miss her. Sometimes, life's just not fair.

Comments

[imnotacommittee]

My friend, my heart is both happy and breaking for you. She is celebrating with you. I know it.

[comeshootwithme]

Thank you so much for your consolation. I hope she is, too. I just talked to her photograph, as I do sometime, and hope she's somewhere to hear it. And I have consolation in the knowledge that she was already proud of me and convinced I could do it, before she died. I talked to her before she passed and said I'd never really be without her, because I'm her blood and carry her inside me - literally, biologically, but of course also in my mind - whereever I go. So most of the time, I'm fairly content with that knowledge. But this day was quite special and well, it's just hard on such days. But I'm trying to be happy, more than sad.

[comeshootwithme]

Hi, thanks for your kind words! Both on my mum and on my BA :-)
I had a look around your journal too and added you as a friend, hope you don't mind? I always like to "meet" new friends online!

[london_fan]

It's weird how we in the most happy moments still remember those we miss and would want to have with us to share our joy with. *hugs*

[comeshootwithme]

Thank you. Indeed, I just wish she could be here for the good times, too. It's strange....
Thanks for the hug!

[rymrytr]

I found your post about DiscWorld and when I saw that you have "Puns" as one of your interests listed in your profile, I decided to "Friend" you.

As for the loss of your Mom, I can only anticipate. I'm currently the Care Giver (24/7/365) for mine. She's 86 and in mid to late stages of Alzheimer's. She doesn't always know who I am; can't cook, do laundry or work the remote; thinks people on TV are talking to her, at times; etc. I'm retired and had always promised her that she would not have to go to a Nursing Home. Such a brash statement, but what did I know then? It is one thing, to talk with people about Dementia over the years, but another to experience it! Right now, it's 2 A. M. and she is just getting sleepy :o) Thank the Good Lord for Live Journal and all my invisible friends!!!!

I have lost my Dad (12 years ago) and have cold feelings in my stomach, when I think about how life will be, after she passes... I too, shall cry!

[comeshootwithme]

Hi, thanks for your kind words and welcome to my flist! I've friended you back :D
I'm sorry to hear about your mum - I think seeing somebody like that must be very hard. My mother died of cancer at age 59 (I was 33 then) and her final 6 months were very painful and difficult, so I know what it's like to see someone deteriorate (though in a different way, of course).
I hope for you there will be some wonderful moments for you and your mother yet.

[mssnowy]

Big HUG!

[comeshootwithme]

Thanks... I'm fine now, it was just a bit sucky. Argh.