i hate that my mind is telling me to do one thing, and my heart another. i have never felt like this before. never ever ever. it's unexplainable. i had an awesome night tonight. seriously. it's just crazy.. i wish it didn't have to end.. i wish he was here with me..

It's funny how we could know the words to a song, but never actually hear the words.. First I want to point out that the song Pina Collada's is awesome. It's about a couple that love eachother none the less, but are getting bored with the relationship. The guy decides to look in the personal ad columns one night while his wife is sleeping. He see's ( Read more... )

Hearing Mudvayne makes me remember like two years ago. Winter time. Theo's first car. Hanging out with Eddie and Rachael and Chaney. I remember walking around Theo's neighborhood and he was trying to throw punpkins except I was like nooo ( Read more... )

I started college today and believe it or not I absolutely love it! It's all up to me now. No phone call home when I don't go. No note from my parents excusing my absenses, no more FREE EDUCATION. It sucks SO bad how expensive everything is. It's a whole new step in life. SO MANY PEOPLE! My fist class was American National Government.. I LOVE IT! ( Read more... )

My dad and my brother are the two greatest guys on the face of this earth.
I can't even express the love I have for these two.
It's unconditional.

Sometimes I feel as if I'm growing up too fast. All my friends around me are having fun trying new drugs and partying, and I don't seem interested at all. I probably got drunk at most about five times this summer. FIVE TIMES! I know, I know, it's crazy. I just don't want to though. Shrooms and acid have never even crossed my mind as being an option ( Read more... )

I hate being restricted by this. Thinking back on it, I've delt with this for pretty much my whole life. I remember praying to God for him to help me out. Telling him if he helped me, than I wouldn't sin for a really long time. Why is is that beautiful people can't see it within themselves. Why does everyone else's "acceptance" mean so much? I hate ( Read more... )

I'm what I am and I'm what I'm not
And I'm sure happy with what I've got
I live to love and laugh a lot
And that's all I need

Well... Life has been running pretty smoothly lately. Theo moved in with me the other day. We have all his stuff in here, just need a little more room for all the clothes. Haha. To be honest though, I haven't kept my room this clean in so long. Floor always picked up, laundry done, and bed always made. I must say, I'm getting good at this whole ( Read more... )

Love is such an amazing feeling. I am so so happy to share it with Theo. He is the most important person in my life. Words can't describe right now what I am feeling for him. I have always always loved Theo, but it's happened. I've fallen back inlove.. It is the greatest feeling ever and I almost forgot what it feels like. Sometimes you just need ( Read more... )