I have a drinking problem....and not the "Hey I'm 22" kind.....the kind where I want and need alcohol all the time. I'm tired of the way I feel after I've been drinking. I think I was addicted to the way it made me feel. But after drinking till I passed out last night and waking up feeling like shit this morning...it made me think a lot because not only did I feel like shit but I cant remember anything. I blacked out and didnt even know it. Another thing is I know the way I act when I'm drunk and I dont like it...and no one else either. I'm just another one of those drunks who everyone points and laughs at. So yeah.
When you keep doing it even though you know it makes feel like shit physically/mentally/emotionally, it's definitely a problem. Blackouts are damn spooky, also-- it's like finding out something wore your skin and did all these weird/stupid/embarassing/dangerous things that you would never have done had you been in full possession of yourself.
Sometimes it helps to remove yourself from the places or people you end up drinking around, but until you take a deep, fearless look inside and figure out what drives you to drink, isolating yourself from people or situations is just a temporary solution..
A small problem with isolating myself is I dont have any friends here except the ones at M-Night. Thats what sucks. I have been to AA meetings before when I was younger b/c I had a problem then. But the question for me is Why Now?? Why After all this time am I going through it AGAIN?!?!
Yugh... sorry to hear things are where they are with that right now. I went through a phase when I was 23 where I drank at home, every day, by myself... sometimes before noon I was already drunk... what a weird and unsatisfying period that was.
Maybe next week at MNight we should all drink Coca-cola, and just eat more... Mmmmmmmmmm....FAJITAS!!!
Its not exactly a period I'm going through. I've been through it before and thought everything was okay and I would never do it again....well I was wrong. I did happen again....just not as bad. I think that I'm a strong person and I can get through this all by myself this time. I will still attend M-Night and everything....but yeah I will only be drinking something....Non Alcoholic.
And yes....FOOD....now thats one thing I can handle. lol
Hey, we all have our problems that we have to deal with at some time in our lives. I would never begin to judge you. Friends are here for support and I know that we've never met in person but I do feel like you'd be there for me as well.
Let me know if there is anything that I can do. I'll email you my cell number if you ever just want to talk.
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Sometimes it helps to remove yourself from the places or people you end up drinking around, but until you take a deep, fearless look inside and figure out what drives you to drink, isolating yourself from people or situations is just a temporary solution..
take care of yourself, hun... *hugs*
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*hugs*
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Whats funny is the ones who talk the most are usually the best listeners!
Thanx! :) *hugs*
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Maybe next week at MNight we should all drink Coca-cola, and just eat more...
Mmmmmmmmmm....FAJITAS!!!
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And yes....FOOD....now thats one thing I can handle. lol
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Thanx so much! :)
*Hugs*
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Let me know if there is anything that I can do. I'll email you my cell number if you ever just want to talk.
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*Hug*
Much good luck.
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*hugs*
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