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[communtycard]

One of the more bizarre things I've been doing lately is I've been praying nightly before settling into sleep. I used to be really religious when I was a kid, but since about high school I gave up prayer and soon after religion all together. Koreans in the Christian community are standouts in terms of prayer; there's just something about the social

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[kiskadee]

When I used to pray I totally never started with an address... I guess I assumed if anything was listening it would naturally understand it was the target audience.

But I'm totally with you on being in the state... there are definitely some positive supernatural type experiences to be gained from prayer, meditation, etc.

[communtycard]

Targeting a specific deity just helps me get into the mood. I pray to them differently because of what they represent (and people don't exactly pray to Buddha anyways). That's probably why I enjoy Thor Thursdays so much.

[farrow]

I have this random memory of you from high school one day mentioning how, in church, when they give you a moment to pray silently, and then they go to end it and start talking again, you were always like "Uh- just - one second..."

That line still pops into my head sometimes in church when, yeah, they totally never give you enough time to think more than like "Yo, so as you know things have been the same old kind of alright-but-fucked-up lately DAMMIT just one second!"

Anyway. Glad you are finding some peace in the process.

[lobsterbox]

Even though I'm a lifelong Catholic (though if the Pope knew of all the ways in which I deviate from the mainline, I'd likely be booted out), I've always felt kind of useless at praying because I guess I never really knew what to do. It was always a kind of a stumbling, "Oh, um, OK God, so could you please take care of my dead rabbit when he gets to Heaven and, um, watch over my little brother, uh, and, oh crap!" Mark and I used to do it together (heh heh) before bedtime but have fallen out of the habit, and if I got tonguetied in private it was even harder with another person. Though sometimes I certainly felt the kind of peace you described, and it was pleasant activity to share with someone else.

That said, glad you're finding it so helpful, and Thor Thursdays sound like a great idead. I think it's important to leaven your religious (or areligious) practices with humor because really, life's friggin' ridiculous.