jen, bobby, wade, and i went to newhall yesterday and kicked the ball around a bit. it has been a really long time since i played soccer. it felt good to be out there again running around and getting a little bruised up. lol. anyway, i had a blast and while the weather is nice i am going to try and have a little more of those outings if anyone ( Read more... )

i know i think a lot. and change my mind a lot too. that's okay - it's just who i am.

i think that it is time to accept that i am not my therapist and i dont have her mind and that yes i do have an ego. an ego that likes to be hugged and cuddled with and accepted for who she is. a person that has insecurities about certain aspects of her life. i cant lie to myself that i am such the being that hasnt dealt of thought about ( Read more... )

trying to find something to do to occupy my thoughts and mind and emtotions and feelings! so how are all of you in livejournal land> i havent really written in here or my old journal in a long time. why? i dont really know - there are more reasons that would come to mind anyway. there comes a time when i doubt myself i think we all doubt ( Read more... )

i kinda feel like fuck all this shit and just do whatever. do whatever comes around and just chill the fuck out you know. chill......relax.....you're 20 - you dont have to be all grown up today - shiat.

mkay

alright so yeah life is weird. i feel like all of my relationships with everyone have been tested and are being tested. damn man, shitstorm. i love you andy, steve, and toph. you guys dont read my livejournal but i am going to say that anyway... we show our love in spirit. i dont even know what to say other then i feel like i am in some odd ( Read more... )

life is still weird but i think i might be doing better then i was before ( Read more... )

does anyone else find rain so incredibly depressing>= i am looking outside and it screams at me to stay home stay home stay home dont talk to anyone curl up in bed and read read read@! mkay im over it for now ( Read more... )

hmmmmm yeah, i dont know

i feel like shit