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imo they're the strongest public universities in texas with a lot of great programs. i'm still set on attending ucm, but i was still really happy about getting accepted by ut and a&m ~confidence boost~ lol. but yeah, when i found out, i was so happy. i even told my big sister about it. i haven't done a great job of including her in my high school life, with distance and other factors, but i emailed her 5 or 10 minutes after i found about my acceptance from ut. AND THE BEST THING WAS, SHE REPLIED BACK IMMEDIATELY TELLING ME THAT SHE WAS SO PROUD OF ME. then we had a long conversation about whether she could come fly back to the u.s. for my graduation, but i don't think it's likely. still, her telling me that she was proud of me made me happy. um, i really look up to my sister in a way. she was the first person in our family to graduate from a 4-year university and i remember the determination she had in high school when i was young. she probably doesn't even remember this, but in 10th grade, i had to talk to her on aim and she asked about what i wanted to do. and i told her that i was going to go straight to community college and get all my shit done to become an accountant. then she told me that she was surprised and that it seemed like i was wasting a lot of my talents by being lazy and shit (well she didn't say anything about me being lazy, but it was implied). so i thought a lot about what she said, because it's rare whenever she gives me advice, and i realized that she was right. i was giving up a lot of things i could do-school and sports-just so i could lie around on my ass. there are a lot of reasons explaining why i changed my act, and my big sister is one of them. tbh even though i am not as close to my sister as i should be (and i used to sometimes hate her for that), i still consider her as one of my heroes/role models/etc. so to have her tell me that she was proud of me (for the first time in my life, i think)...is awesomesauce. NOW I WILL WAIT UNTIL UNI TO MAKE HER EXTRA PROUD BY DOING EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY CAN LOLOLOLOL.
also, i have been pretty overwhelmed by some other things. basically, i was having problems with guys for a while. my co-worker had this massive crush on me, and my other co-workers almost convinced me to go out with him (as in letting him take me out to the movies or a date like that). and i was really close to until aaron (this guy i volunteer with at the library) showed interest in me. i liked him for a while, but my feelings almost went away because it seemed like he only thought of me as a friend. then aaron and i started talking to each other more after i sent him this retarded video. we began talking every day and then it lead to us confessing that we liked each other. i had no idea he liked me, but he told me he has ever since we met. the last day i volunteered at the library, i acted like nothing was happening between us so my friend kathy wouldn't suspect anything, but we hugged in public. then we went to the office and i kissed him on the cheek, he kissed me back, and we held each other for a long time until i started freaking out that a librarian or kathy was going to find us. but we kept kissing each other on the cheek discreetly. BUT WE ARE NOT DATING. idk we're unofficial boyfriend and girlfriend, that's what he calls it, because i told him i wanted to hang out with him first before going into a relationship. but yeah, i'm basically at the point in my life where everything feels balanced now that i know we like each other and i can still handle everything else. i still have to tell my co-worker that i don't think i can give him a chance, but life is swell. SWELLIGENT lol, reference to proudfoot. i'm mostly relieved bc i like aaron, but i don't have to worry about him being a bad guy that's just flirting with me for fun anymore. and i don't have urges to make him the center of my life, because we're both seniors at different high schools and he understands how busy it gets. he's just my "special" friend rn so i'm not expecting anything, but. i'm balanced (and relieved bc i could have went out with my co-worker and never have known that troll liked me. okay, yeah, i call aaron troll but he already knows) (also relieved bc i was always weary about giving my co-worker a chance bc i didn't know why else he liked me besides that i'm "cute" while aaron likes me because i make him laugh and we can talk about a lot of shit)
also, i have been pretty overwhelmed by some other things. basically, i was having problems with guys for a while. my co-worker had this massive crush on me, and my other co-workers almost convinced me to go out with him (as in letting him take me out to the movies or a date like that). and i was really close to until aaron (this guy i volunteer with at the library) showed interest in me. i liked him for a while, but my feelings almost went away because it seemed like he only thought of me as a friend. then aaron and i started talking to each other more after i sent him this retarded video. we began talking every day and then it lead to us confessing that we liked each other. i had no idea he liked me, but he told me he has ever since we met. the last day i volunteered at the library, i acted like nothing was happening between us so my friend kathy wouldn't suspect anything, but we hugged in public. then we went to the office and i kissed him on the cheek, he kissed me back, and we held each other for a long time until i started freaking out that a librarian or kathy was going to find us. but we kept kissing each other on the cheek discreetly. BUT WE ARE NOT DATING. idk we're unofficial boyfriend and girlfriend, that's what he calls it, because i told him i wanted to hang out with him first before going into a relationship. but yeah, i'm basically at the point in my life where everything feels balanced now that i know we like each other and i can still handle everything else. i still have to tell my co-worker that i don't think i can give him a chance, but life is swell. SWELLIGENT lol, reference to proudfoot. i'm mostly relieved bc i like aaron, but i don't have to worry about him being a bad guy that's just flirting with me for fun anymore. and i don't have urges to make him the center of my life, because we're both seniors at different high schools and he understands how busy it gets. he's just my "special" friend rn so i'm not expecting anything, but. i'm balanced (and relieved bc i could have went out with my co-worker and never have known that troll liked me. okay, yeah, i call aaron troll but he already knows) (also relieved bc i was always weary about giving my co-worker a chance bc i didn't know why else he liked me besides that i'm "cute" while aaron likes me because i make him laugh and we can talk about a lot of shit)