i am so insecure. i am so happy. but i haven't been happy with myself since i was too young to care. i want to be too young to care. i never make it up to the mark of GOOD. don't pity me; i'm not fishing for a compliment. i just want for once to not be in the middle, not be average, not be ordinary. am i ordinary? i would hate to think so--i hate ( Read more... )

doubt your doubts,
doubt your doubts.

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when you're 9 you want to be 13 so you can be a teenager and do big kid stuff. when you're 13 you can't wait to turn 16 so you can drive like a big kid. then you're 16 and driving isn't so amazing anymore and you set your sights on 18 so you can be an adultish big kid. isn't that how it goes? and now i'm 18 (er, almost) and it still isn't old ( Read more... )

i think the only two songs i've never gotten sick of no matter how many times i listen to them over and over again, are semi-charmed life by 3eb and y-control by the yeah yeah yeahs. tomorrow's a half day & then i am finishing my present for billy's and my 6th month (sunday) which is going to be so dorky but so awesome, and then i guess i have to ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in a while. i've been neglecting a lot, in fact, including writing in my own journal and having my devotions. i've just let my priorities go crazy. well realizing is the first step to getting back on track, i guess ( Read more... )

senior trip tomorrowww!

happy birthday meagan and hannah:)


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+ senior trip is this week tues-fri ( Read more... )

i want so badly to be beautiful. i take so very much to heart. i really enjoy this one ben kweller song ( Read more... )

quick update. today was the first day of school of course. it was a blur mainly. umm we lost our senior privilages because we did the pranks last night. we were out there from like midnight to 3am working hard to make good pranks and we get to school this morning and our pranks were demolished; the faculty had cleaned everything and all our work ( Read more... )