i don't know if i believe in god, but this was on one of the christmas cards that i got and i think it's beautiful, so i thought i'd share ( Read more... )

vicky says my writing has gotten all mooney and melodramatic since i've gotten depressed. the truth: it always has been i think. wouldn't it be great if i could find the words to say what i really want to say? i think so. just so you know though, i'm really not mooney and melodramatic. easily excited: yes. easily moved: yes. melodramatic ( Read more... )

it's really lonely when i get on line and noone i know has updated or e-mailed me. i guess that's how they feel when i never update...

anyway, happy thanksgiving! i myself am having thanksgiving on saturday with the neary's, which will be just lovely i know. hope you're all having a great day!

i went for a walk yesterday in st. steven's green, past the ducks in the pond and under the changing leaves. lennon was with me and he hasn't been well lately and we were talking about it and about changing the way we look at things and how that's a really hard thing to do. he asked me how i am and i said better, not a hundred percent, but that i ( Read more... )

vicky, i'm going to call you this weekend. i miss you. how are you?

it's an interesting thing about depression. i can look at it now, because i'm through the worst of it i think; i still have bad days, but not as often, and i'm more aware i guess. i was saying yesterday how strange it is, that people walking down the same street can experience it so differently. trapped inside our heads and ourselves we can miss ( Read more... )

i finally got my blood work done. :)

and i feel good. i'm getting better, i really am.

almost a full week of Doing Much Better.

*smile*

this is the first day in a long time that i woke up happy. do you know, i was actually singing this morning? and i didn't realize it until about half way through. that's great ( Read more... )

hey. so bear with me. i have a lot to say and i don't really know how to say it. since i last wrote, the following events have occured ( Read more... )