my first thoughts when seeing this: 19k?? of junhwan?/ character death?? TIME TRAVEL??
Jinhwan tugs the collar of his coat- no, Junhwe’s coat- up over the lower half of his face, and waits. shARInG cLOThES?? tiny jinhwan in big junhwe's jacket?? mY WEAKNESS
Junhwe leans in towards the Other One- a kiss?- but is batted away. There’s a brief flash of disappointment across Junhwe’s face, and Jinhwan’s heart sinks a little in his chest. is this [whispers] infidelity jK jk Himself. Kim Jinhwan. i waSNT SEEING THIS PLOT TWIST??
An entire world that Jinhwan is not only not a part of, but one he could have been a part of, had he not chosen otherwise. this sadness -_____- why....
Eventually, the cold wins over. Jinhwan zips Junhwe’s coat all the way up to his chin and resumes walking in moody silence. NO THIS IS SO CUTE?? JINHWAN ZIPPING UP JUNHWE?? TAKING CARE OF HIM (but not like a mom bc mom!jinhwan is not smth we need) [clutches heart]
He pushes Junhwe away when Junhwe leans in for a kiss. It’s instinctive, not entirely something
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Junhwe is quick to pick up on the generosity. “There are other ways you could congratulate me,” he says, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. whAT a laME nerd honestly goo junhwe. this scene was so cute tho!! junhwe you little shit purposely hugging jinhwan to get sweaty then taking a shower wOW whAT A LOSER
A wave of something sweeps through Jinhwan, starting from the pit of his stomach- something that feels a lot like guilt. He’d grown accustomed to avoiding questions from colleagues about his personal life; he’d probably mentioned Junhwe only once or twice as the flatmate he’d known since university. It wasn’t that he was ashamed of admitting to their relationship, or anything. i am Upset this is Terrible i can just see junhwe with sMILE AND ALL telling everyone about his cute little boyfriend and jinhwan why i trusted you
“No, I’ve changed my mind, I’m going to ask Chanwoo to live with me instead,” Jinhwan says. “Don’t be ridiculous. Of course I’m sure.” wouldnt that have been terribly tragic now
ALICE, THIS COMMENT. THESE COMMENTS. I love reading your thought process so much you are so cute. And like I said before, as long as you enjoyed this then I'm happy, that's all that matters ;__;
my first thoughts when seeing this: 19k?? of junhwan?/ character death?? TIME TRAVEL?? Remember that brief period of time in which you kept trying to make me envision angsty junhwan?? And said someone should write angsty junhwan/junhwan longfic?? I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY NOW. Omg, all that confusion is all too familiar it's still what I think when I look at this fic, like how in the world did I even finish it?? (Answer: I had to get it done for you. This fic would never have existed otherwise.) i think i ended up half tense and half sobbing and half 'aw'ing during this fic I'm so glad I managed to move you (all three halves of you)!! And that you thought it was "great" despite being tragic!
jinhwan in this fic he had such conflicting feelings and i feel like the fact that he restricted himself from doing some things was what tormented him the
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lmao i literally feel like i’ve been waiting for this fic to debut longer than ikon u___u IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT THOUGH, IT’S SO GOOD! like please don’t me wrong, it’s fucking terrible and awful and if i had known how it would end i would have spat on your hand instead of holding it, and i wish this wasn’t so great so i didn’t have to wake up still feeling residual sadness from when i read it last night. hahaha i don’t know how to structure this comment because everything i wanna say overlaps, so i’m sorry if it gets redundant
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and your time travel!!!! ):< IDC WHAT YOUR PERSONAL BELIEFS ARE, HEAVEN EXISTS IN THIS AU. but the way you put everything together was so wonderful! you left clues througout the entire fic, and everything came together so well. and things that felt odd to me, like donghyuk’s attachment to yunhyeong or whatever, was explained so well later on. and i love how as the entire fic unravelled, so did the inevitability of the entire situation. i was so tense throughout! like i knew jinhwan would cause the explosion, and i was just cringing and covering my face, dreading the how and when. i love this line from yunhyeong And yet, there’s someone he can save. Someone he’s meant to save. destiny sounds a bit too cute, but basically the fact you can’t change the timeline, things that happen are meant to happen. and i like how that all falls into place with yunhyeong. ultimately if you think about it, whether jinhwan went back or not, the event was bound to happen, there’s no way out of it. and even though THE PARADOX IDEA IS SO FRUSTRATING???
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SCREECHES THIS COMMENT. You're FAR too nice to me omg and such sweet and generous praise?? How do I write you a decent reply when my response to almost every paragraph is 'spot on, couldn't have put it better myself'?? I don't know how your 'stream of consciousness' manages to come out looking so well-organised and eloquent, it's 2am over here and I feel really inarticulate so please forgive me if I gradually stop making sense.
like please don’t me wrong, it’s fucking terrible and awful and if i had known how it would end i would have spat on your hand instead of holding it, and i wish this wasn’t so great so i didn’t have to wake up still feeling residual sadness from when i read it last night Rude??? But while we're on the topic of hand-holding I still feel like me thanking you a few times for all your help/support with this fic is so inadequate u__u ily reet. I don't think I'd have been able to stand myself and all my ineptitude if I'd been in your position. I'll make it up to you someday. I guess I shouldn't feel so happy that
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at the risk of quoting way too much from this fic i'll just go with my favorites which is kind of everything but must practice self restraint
The day Junhwe dies starts out like any other. like wow right after i read this i was 99% sure i was gonna like it, i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound
“Ugh,” Junhwe says, after a beat. “You were right. You really are gross.” He shifts against Jinhwan’s back, and Jinhwan is sure three showers won’t get rid of the feeling of his soggy t-shirt moving between them. “Junhwe…” “So gross,” Junhwe continues. “That I need a shower. Immediately. Like, right now.” SIR YOU ARE SO TRANSPARENT SIT DOWN
Jinhwan can barely get the words out. “Are you here to save Junhwe, too
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Oh, wow. Thank you for such a long and kind comment, I'm really glad to hear the fic worked for you and that you were affected by it!! Two of the parts you mention -- where yunhyeong tells jinhwan he's travelled back to save him, and where jinhwan realises he caused the accident -- were ones I really hoped would make an ~impact~ (I suppose it helps that they each end their respective sections), so I'm happy you picked them out! i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound I wonder what this makes me for writing this monster... u__u
The mess of a dinner slash interrogation scene was something I worried about (is it too much?? is this how they'd act?? what's happening??), so it means a lot that you found it realistic/accurate! And junhwe being a complete Teenage Boy even when he's not is...eternal tbh. Is dying together any sort of consolation? ;; I've so far ended up feeling pretty apologetic reading the comments I've gotten but your dear god junhwan angst makes me happy !!! BUT I'M GLAD YOU'RE
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it's no problem at all!! it was so good and also incredibly long so therefore long comment is necessary. this is the part where i attempt to break out one of those math properties but i didn't do so well in math, so there goes that
ngl junhwe will probably be Teenage Boy forever, like i imagine him being a cranky old man arguing with his teenage grandkids and his maturity level will be no higher, or something like that lol
i guess i'm a bit of an oddity in that angst fics are my favorite to read lol is it bad that i feel like every otp needs a really good fic where someone dies
my twitter is @ loverikonic ^^ i don't have a lot of fandom friends (read: zero) so... a ha ha. apologies in advance??
I SHOULD'VE REPLIED TO YOUR COMMENT WHEN I GOT IT u__u THIS IS NOW RIDICULOUSLY LATE, I'M SO SORRY.
At first I thought by 'transitioned' you meant scene transitions, but now I realise you were probably referring to how I went from a silly/light-hearted attempt at a detective au to 19k of character death fic ;;;
Anyhow, thank you for reading!!! I'm glad you think I did a decent job with it <3
i rly did mean scene transitions!! but it was way past my bedtime when i read this so im surprised i even managed to comment at all. one of my biggest pet peeves is when the scenes don't mesh and i end up losing something and the flow is ruined. but it was good here.
(also, i should thank you again for being the one to fill my prompt w/ the detective au)
i love your writing style and this kind of fic seems to be more in your element? i was surprised when i saw the word count and the premise being time jumping but you did rly great!
Ooh okay, I'm glad you think so!! Especially since there was a whole lot of jumping around chronologically. I can't say I really know how it reads, but I think with the way everything is presented, it all eventually falls into place? Even if it seems confusing at first. I'm happy to hear the transitions didn't seem jarring!
(Omg, not at all, I should thank you for coming up with such a fantastic prompt and then leaving me such a nice, encouraging comment. Like, where would I be right now if I hadn't been spurred into action by your prompt?? Haha.)
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Jinhwan tugs the collar of his coat- no, Junhwe’s coat- up over the lower half of his face, and waits. shARInG cLOThES?? tiny jinhwan in big junhwe's jacket?? mY WEAKNESS
Junhwe leans in towards the Other One- a kiss?- but is batted away. There’s a brief flash of disappointment across Junhwe’s face, and Jinhwan’s heart sinks a little in his chest. is this [whispers] infidelity jK jk Himself. Kim Jinhwan. i waSNT SEEING THIS PLOT TWIST??
An entire world that Jinhwan is not only not a part of, but one he could have been a part of, had he not chosen otherwise. this sadness -_____- why....
Eventually, the cold wins over. Jinhwan zips Junhwe’s coat all the way up to his chin and resumes walking in moody silence. NO THIS IS SO CUTE?? JINHWAN ZIPPING UP JUNHWE?? TAKING CARE OF HIM (but not like a mom bc mom!jinhwan is not smth we need) [clutches heart]
He pushes Junhwe away when Junhwe leans in for a kiss. It’s instinctive, not entirely something ( ... )
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A wave of something sweeps through Jinhwan, starting from the pit of his stomach- something that feels a lot like guilt. He’d grown accustomed to avoiding questions from colleagues about his personal life; he’d probably mentioned Junhwe only once or twice as the flatmate he’d known since university. It wasn’t that he was ashamed of admitting to their relationship, or anything. i am Upset this is Terrible i can just see junhwe with sMILE AND ALL telling everyone about his cute little boyfriend and jinhwan why i trusted you
“No, I’ve changed my mind, I’m going to ask Chanwoo to live with me instead,” Jinhwan says. “Don’t be ridiculous. Of course I’m sure.” wouldnt that have been terribly tragic now
“No,” Yunhyeong says. “I’m here ( ... )
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my first thoughts when seeing this: 19k?? of junhwan?/ character death?? TIME TRAVEL?? Remember that brief period of time in which you kept trying to make me envision angsty junhwan?? And said someone should write angsty junhwan/junhwan longfic?? I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY NOW. Omg, all that confusion is all too familiar it's still what I think when I look at this fic, like how in the world did I even finish it?? (Answer: I had to get it done for you. This fic would never have existed otherwise.) i think i ended up half tense and half sobbing and half 'aw'ing during this fic I'm so glad I managed to move you (all three halves of you)!! And that you thought it was "great" despite being tragic!
jinhwan in this fic he had such conflicting feelings and i feel like the fact that he restricted himself from doing some things was what tormented him the ( ... )
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like please don’t me wrong, it’s fucking terrible and awful and if i had known how it would end i would have spat on your hand instead of holding it, and i wish this wasn’t so great so i didn’t have to wake up still feeling residual sadness from when i read it last night Rude??? But while we're on the topic of hand-holding I still feel like me thanking you a few times for all your help/support with this fic is so inadequate u__u ily reet. I don't think I'd have been able to stand myself and all my ineptitude if I'd been in your position. I'll make it up to you someday. I guess I shouldn't feel so happy that ( ... )
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I am sorry u__u
(Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment?? I'm glad the fic had some sort of an impact on you......I guess. Omg.)
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at the risk of quoting way too much from this fic i'll just go with my favorites which is kind of everything but must practice self restraint
The day Junhwe dies starts out like any other. like wow right after i read this i was 99% sure i was gonna like it, i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound
“Ugh,” Junhwe says, after a beat. “You were right. You really are gross.”
He shifts against Jinhwan’s back, and Jinhwan is sure three showers won’t get rid of the feeling of his soggy t-shirt moving between them. “Junhwe…”
“So gross,” Junhwe continues. “That I need a shower. Immediately. Like, right now.” SIR YOU ARE SO TRANSPARENT SIT DOWN
Jinhwan can barely get the words out. “Are you here to save Junhwe, too ( ... )
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The mess of a dinner slash interrogation scene was something I worried about (is it too much?? is this how they'd act?? what's happening??), so it means a lot that you found it realistic/accurate! And junhwe being a complete Teenage Boy even when he's not is...eternal tbh. Is dying together any sort of consolation? ;; I've so far ended up feeling pretty apologetic reading the comments I've gotten but your dear god junhwan angst makes me happy !!! BUT I'M GLAD YOU'RE ( ... )
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ngl junhwe will probably be Teenage Boy forever, like i imagine him being a cranky old man arguing with his teenage grandkids and his maturity level will be no higher, or something like that lol
i guess i'm a bit of an oddity in that angst fics are my favorite to read lol is it bad that i feel like every otp needs a really good fic where someone dies
my twitter is @ loverikonic ^^ i don't have a lot of fandom friends (read: zero) so... a ha ha. apologies in advance??
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i gotta comment on your writing and how you transitioned. but not rn. i gotta sleep rn.
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At first I thought by 'transitioned' you meant scene transitions, but now I realise you were probably referring to how I went from a silly/light-hearted attempt at a detective au to 19k of character death fic ;;;
Anyhow, thank you for reading!!! I'm glad you think I did a decent job with it <3
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(also, i should thank you again for being the one to fill my prompt w/ the detective au)
i love your writing style and this kind of fic seems to be more in your element? i was surprised when i saw the word count and the premise being time jumping but you did rly great!
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(Omg, not at all, I should thank you for coming up with such a fantastic prompt and then leaving me such a nice, encouraging comment. Like, where would I be right now if I hadn't been spurred into action by your prompt?? Haha.)
Thank you!! You're too kind ;__;
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