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Bent Part 10

Sep 26, 2014 17:41

Title: Bent
Author: Concupid
Pairing: Howard/Vince
Rating: R
Warnings: dub-con (manipulation not violence), very, very mild violence, language, angst, suggestion of emotional abuse, manipulation, general unpleasantness
Summary: Vince reflects on all the things Howard doesn’t know

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howard/vince, the mighty boosh, bent, r, genderswap, fanfic, slash, angst

Comments 10

thx4theether September 27 2014, 17:18:57 UTC

Oh, this Vince breaks my heart so thoroughly.

concupiscence66 September 27 2014, 17:47:12 UTC

He's been doing a number on me as well! Thanks for commenting. I honestly believe the journey will be worth it, but it's a bumpy road to say the least.

bluestocking79 September 27 2014, 23:45:09 UTC

Ahhhh, you juicy dangler! I have no idea what Vince is going to reveal about Charlie and his dad and what happened there, but the guilt just saying that brought up suggests it's something deeply buried and rarely (if ever) discussed. I know that whatever it is, it will be something that surprises me and blows my mind in the best way ( ... )

Part II, because word limits suck bluestocking79 September 27 2014, 23:46:16 UTC

(Continued from previous comment... I spent too long on this, I'm not chopping up these thoughts ( ... )

Re: Part II, because word limits suck concupiscence66 September 30 2014, 18:53:59 UTC

Your response is entirely too insightful for a proper response because I would end up telling the story here, but I can say, the Rumbelow's reference was intentional. I liked the idea that there was a reason he could just walk in and not only land a job but be able to bring Howard on. I also wanted to let Vince use his powers for good and torture someone who really needed it!

Hopefully the story of Charlie will shed light on Vince. We'll see how well I handle it! With kids, it's not so much what happens as how they interpret what happened. You make those connections as a kid and you often don't question them later because they just float around in your subconscious.

Re: Part II, because word limits suck bluestocking79 September 30 2014, 20:54:31 UTC

I'm glad I mentioned the Rumbelow's reference, then! It's brilliant and makes total sense. It seemed way too specific to just be a coincidental mention.

Re: Charlie and it being more about Vince's interpretation of what happened versus the actual incident, that was my gut feeling, especially since he automatically felt guilty about bringing it up. Since it happened when he was a kid, there's no LOGICAL reason for him to feel guilty, but there are obviously some deeply-buried associations and assumptions there. When Vince thinks that it wasn't really Charlie's fault, the implication is that he thinks it was his. You're right: kids absorb all these emotional impressions of things and events (especially when guilt/blame/shame/responsibility are concerned) and tend to internalize them, so those unconscious associations stay there as they grow up and never get examined more closely. I'll be interested to see what Vince has to say! I'd bet he's never willingly talked about it as an adult and is still thinking of it with the emotions of a

Re: Part II, because word limits suck concupiscence66 September 30 2014, 22:29:41 UTC

I was always going to have Vince scare the crap out of the guy, but the Rumbelow's bit was a last minute bit of inspiration.

This whole story us a therapy session because I am trying to tap into the kinds of things you don't examine until it is brought to your attention that your feelings/thoughts aren't universal or that your understanding of a subject never actually matured since childhood. Like how people have no clue about the electoral college. I honestly can't count how many times I have explained the electoral college! Until it stops being an academic issue and becomes personally relevant, the concept just lies in the corner of your mind. Like a pink bitch.

littleredchucks September 28 2014, 06:34:45 UTC

Wow, this story is killing me. It's beautiful and intense and well written and everything one could ever possibly hope for in a work of fiction. But it's killing me. I read each chapter slowly and then take deep breaths and then read it again. I'm in love with the way you've depicted the characters and the depth you've given them and I desperately need to know what will happen next. Thank you for your amazing levels of awesome.
Oh and for making me almost cry again. Thanks a whole lot. I shall stare patiently at my computer screen until the next chapter happens.

concupiscence66 September 28 2014, 13:11:13 UTC

This chapter was so hard to write and I guess your reaction means I got it right! I do feel like the chapters after this will be a relative breeze.

I will try not to leave you hanging too long. In the meantime, just keep reading Bluey's review and I have a picture of two kittens I would be willing to sell you. The one with the small eyes is called Phillip.

ideserveyou September 29 2014, 09:56:59 UTC

You broke my heart with Vince's thoughts in this one, you really did. He's so aware of Howard's vulnerabilities and he has that awful pulling-the-wings-off-flies instinct to hurt him. And he wants Howard to see him as the monster he feels himself to be, but Howard just can't (or won't) see him that way... Ow, ow, hurts so bad, a little to the left...

Vince's backstory is painful too, and I am intrigued (and also appalled) to find that Charlie played a part in it!

But in among all that, you made me laugh... and their conversation feels so natural. I love the way you write dialogue for these two.

Now I'm going to post my incoherent comment and go and read what your articulate reviewers had to say!