this morning i woke up really depressed & anxious [well.. really anxious in terms of what i was planning to do today, which was just work & meet up with blacklacedwings].. it took all my energy to muster up the courage to go to work.. but i took a b complex & worked for 4 hours. cancelled with blacklacedwings because i was in no fit state to cheer someone up.. then took a ( Read more... )

please love my newly shaped hair + bangs + my new glasses [and my lurid pink pyjama top & pale pink blanky]


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http://www.diedonline.com/

insanity_theory gave me that link and i fear it, but i think i want to get an account.

i am at insanity_theory's place and she's singing next to me in this funny way. this morning we saw shrek 2 at 11:15 !!!!!!! what the hell. but it was very very good and amusing. hurrah. it's so cold today which is why we're hiding out here. and insanity_theory is putting in a serial number for the sims which she is trying to install on her computer.. well, it's the hot date ( Read more... )

planning to move back to the yazza on thursday. hopefully i can do that in the morning & then still get to the city to see blacklacedwings & go op-shopping because i really need a costume for grimmy_22's 21st. i'm pretty excited about it because i get to help with decorations & stuff and i LOVE setting up parties. yay ! i still have to buy her birthday present which i'm ( Read more... )

my email address has changed. if you don't already know what it is, see my userinfo.

"3am/and it's quiet again/where's my lip-guh-LOSSSSSSSSS"

ok i went to bed at 9:30, then got stuck reading the goblet of fire until about 1, then lay in bed for an hour trying to sleep before coming back out to the study to add more to my psych summary which i have to finish & send to ohyes & lee-lee-nore by about midday tomorrow, and now i'm too foggy ( Read more... )

"You will always get more of the way you are feeling - not always thinking (sometimes it will happen if what you are thinking and vibrating are a match), but feeling. The universe does not understand your words - it only "understands" and responds to your vibration." - part of 'A Crash Course in Manifesting" posted by 101st monkey on the Read more... )

thanks to everyone who replied to my last post of despair. i'm really fine. i realised this morning that it sounded like i was self-injuring or something. i'm not. it's ok. thankyou so much for your concern though, i really appreciate it, but i don't have enough energy to reply to you, because anything to do with the way i was feeling last night ( Read more... )

i LOVE doing things that are completely self-destructive ! yes ! bring on the pain ! i love it !! yes !! nightmares again !